Finding Neverland
So after getting "Ditched" twice today... my sister decided to take me to see a movie... we saw finding neverland. I must say it was a good movie...it made me cry. It was a good night until we were on our way home and my sister started yelling at me because she couldn't find the one ramp to I-5 when we were downtown... really is that my fault! Its alright though cause once we got home Joey called her and she went over to his house so here I am in my apartment again all by myself.
It really makes me sad that i'm alone so much... I really wish there was a way that i wouldn't be...
tonight I started telling my sister about how i've been feeling lately but really just like everyone she didn't want to listen. I guess its kind of a good thing that really you don't have to read this if you don't want to but i can still say what i want to.
I knew coming to seattle would be lonely just cause i don't know anyone that lives here but when i basically found out that i couldn't go to oregon state i didn't think it would be this loney because i had someone in my life that atleast if we didn't see eachother everyday (cause we didn't) we atleast talked. It sucks not being able to see someone that you got really close too over the last couple of months. Basically telling him anything and everything. I felt like i could be who i wanted to be when i was with him. Who i truly was. I understand that we broke up and yes i still like him but i really don't want to lose our friendship. truly I felt like i had a friendship with him... i thought we were kinda starting to actaually be able to hang out just as friends. but then shit happened. I don't know what really happened really i don't care anymore. I just want my friend back. I want to be able to call him and talk to him like i use too, be able to just call and say hi how are you how was your day.I really miss having someone to talk to even if it was really about nothing. cause we both know most of the time is was about nothing. But talking about nothing to someone is truly better then not talking to anyone.
I miss listening to his pickleball stories. I miss him.
I understand why we can't see eachother but really i miss having my friend to talk too..
I really miss my friends in Oregon....I miss having OC nights with muffin and Mindy... I miss talking to cindy about boys... I miss watching movies with muffin... I miss going to drunkin parties with joel! I miss bob telling me his problems... I wanna go back
Nobody said it was easy
it's such a shame for us to part
nobody said it was easy
no one ever said it would be this hard
oh take me back to the start
It really makes me sad that i'm alone so much... I really wish there was a way that i wouldn't be...
tonight I started telling my sister about how i've been feeling lately but really just like everyone she didn't want to listen. I guess its kind of a good thing that really you don't have to read this if you don't want to but i can still say what i want to.
I knew coming to seattle would be lonely just cause i don't know anyone that lives here but when i basically found out that i couldn't go to oregon state i didn't think it would be this loney because i had someone in my life that atleast if we didn't see eachother everyday (cause we didn't) we atleast talked. It sucks not being able to see someone that you got really close too over the last couple of months. Basically telling him anything and everything. I felt like i could be who i wanted to be when i was with him. Who i truly was. I understand that we broke up and yes i still like him but i really don't want to lose our friendship. truly I felt like i had a friendship with him... i thought we were kinda starting to actaually be able to hang out just as friends. but then shit happened. I don't know what really happened really i don't care anymore. I just want my friend back. I want to be able to call him and talk to him like i use too, be able to just call and say hi how are you how was your day.I really miss having someone to talk to even if it was really about nothing. cause we both know most of the time is was about nothing. But talking about nothing to someone is truly better then not talking to anyone.
I miss listening to his pickleball stories. I miss him.
I understand why we can't see eachother but really i miss having my friend to talk too..
I really miss my friends in Oregon....I miss having OC nights with muffin and Mindy... I miss talking to cindy about boys... I miss watching movies with muffin... I miss going to drunkin parties with joel! I miss bob telling me his problems... I wanna go back
Nobody said it was easy
it's such a shame for us to part
nobody said it was easy
no one ever said it would be this hard
oh take me back to the start