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Sometimes I hate you.
Actually, it's quite often. Probably more often then it should ever be.
I hate what you did, how you did it. What we were, what we weren't.
You're despicable and make me feel like it was all my fault.
When all I ever wanted was happiness.
And you were too caught up, too distracted, too scared to have anything to do with making anything work at all.
Fuck you. Fuck the thoughts of you that show up in my head. Fuck the absence of thoughts of me in yours.
It's amazing how smart I can be..
And how stupid I can get.
This is me flushing my mind of you. Pouring you out like build-up caught in a drain.
Harsh chemical thoughts.
Actually, it's quite often. Probably more often then it should ever be.
I hate what you did, how you did it. What we were, what we weren't.
You're despicable and make me feel like it was all my fault.
When all I ever wanted was happiness.
And you were too caught up, too distracted, too scared to have anything to do with making anything work at all.
Fuck you. Fuck the thoughts of you that show up in my head. Fuck the absence of thoughts of me in yours.
It's amazing how smart I can be..
And how stupid I can get.
This is me flushing my mind of you. Pouring you out like build-up caught in a drain.
Harsh chemical thoughts.