Martin
Martin! Dude, um, I haven't seen you in forever. How's it been? I heard you were engaged and was glad to hear of good things going on in your life. You seem to be coming into your own again and I always enjoy hearing people finding their way into joyful parts of their life.
Look, I realize that we never were close, we only really spoke at parties, but you always had interesting studies to talk about and things to say. I used to read your journal when LJ was "a thing™" and always thought you had neat ideas going on.
What's with this news of your dying? I wasn't expecting that. I mean, somewhat on principle, really. I am older and what with expectations and such, I was rather expecting to be outlived by even my peripheral friends. And you were always so conscious about your health and taking good care of yourself. And this seems...unfair. Death always does, though.
You went in a moment not in the lingering of cancer, dementia, or other long hospital stays. I am always grateful to hear that although it still pisses me off that it happened NOW. Now when so much of your world was swinging into place.
I know you would be upset by the way you left things and how sincerely you loved the people both past and present in your world. And it does feel so bewildering to think of the sudden empty spot there that was so incredibly full of light and life a week ago even if I wasn't actively watching it.
I don't know what to say and am left hanging a bit wishing I just had better words to say to you and to your loved ones than "I'm sorry" and "goodbye". Never enough, those words. Peace be with you and them.
This entry was originally posted at https://muffyjo.dreamwidth.org/1805768.html.
Look, I realize that we never were close, we only really spoke at parties, but you always had interesting studies to talk about and things to say. I used to read your journal when LJ was "a thing™" and always thought you had neat ideas going on.
What's with this news of your dying? I wasn't expecting that. I mean, somewhat on principle, really. I am older and what with expectations and such, I was rather expecting to be outlived by even my peripheral friends. And you were always so conscious about your health and taking good care of yourself. And this seems...unfair. Death always does, though.
You went in a moment not in the lingering of cancer, dementia, or other long hospital stays. I am always grateful to hear that although it still pisses me off that it happened NOW. Now when so much of your world was swinging into place.
I know you would be upset by the way you left things and how sincerely you loved the people both past and present in your world. And it does feel so bewildering to think of the sudden empty spot there that was so incredibly full of light and life a week ago even if I wasn't actively watching it.
I don't know what to say and am left hanging a bit wishing I just had better words to say to you and to your loved ones than "I'm sorry" and "goodbye". Never enough, those words. Peace be with you and them.
This entry was originally posted at https://muffyjo.dreamwidth.org/1805768.html.