first date....
so I had my first date lastnight with the person I meet last saturday....it lasted forever, but not long enough
I felt so understood, my sexuality, my gender, so many things...it was really quite amazing. I didn't want to leave.
So I am really happy right now. I am relaxed, rejuvinated, content, giddy, and wishing I had a girlfriend from back home to talk to, but i have a test tomorrow to study for, i should not be on the phone. I really feel like I am 16 and should be hidding out in a bedroom with the door shut and whispering about first kisses. We even both really LOVE Magritte and spent part of the night looking at a book about him togeather.
So now a part of me is sad and scared. What if they don't like me? Now I have to leave in a month, and that is all we get if it does work. ::sigh::
I know this is redicilous but I feel like a part of me got to really be for the first time; last night was very important for me. I understand a couple of things I didn't before.
I am convinced more than ever that if you see someone you want to talk to you need to speak to them, casue it might be more worth it than you can even begin to know.
cheesy I know but can't help it
I felt so understood, my sexuality, my gender, so many things...it was really quite amazing. I didn't want to leave.
So I am really happy right now. I am relaxed, rejuvinated, content, giddy, and wishing I had a girlfriend from back home to talk to, but i have a test tomorrow to study for, i should not be on the phone. I really feel like I am 16 and should be hidding out in a bedroom with the door shut and whispering about first kisses. We even both really LOVE Magritte and spent part of the night looking at a book about him togeather.
So now a part of me is sad and scared. What if they don't like me? Now I have to leave in a month, and that is all we get if it does work. ::sigh::
I know this is redicilous but I feel like a part of me got to really be for the first time; last night was very important for me. I understand a couple of things I didn't before.
I am convinced more than ever that if you see someone you want to talk to you need to speak to them, casue it might be more worth it than you can even begin to know.
cheesy I know but can't help it