alone, sara teasdale
I am alone, in spite of love,
In spite of all I take and give -
In spite of all your tenderness,
Sometimes I am not glad to live.
I am alone, as though I stood
On the highest peak of the tired gray world,
About me only swirling snow,
Above me, endless space unfurled;
With earth hidden and heaven hidden,
And only my own spirit’s pride
To keep me from the peace of those
Who are not lonely, having died.
I posted this poem in an early 2006 entry of mine, but i love it because it describes how i often feel about my life and the world around me. lauren let her boyfriend jon take her car somewhere last night, and he hydroplaned. the car flipped three times and was totaled. at the hospital, jon told the nurses lauren wrecked the car. what the hell? she wasn't even in the car. so today my parents told lauren to move in with jon. she has no car, no phone (because it was in her car during the wreck), and only $300. we are hoping she will get sick of jon's shit and come home. or that jon will get tired of her and leave her. or jon will kill himself in a car accident or get sent to jail. we don't care what happens as long as lauren ends up back at home safely. she is so stupid though. she has nothing because of this guy, and yet she thinks she would die without him. i told her you should never want to end your life over a guy. it's not worth it...only your children are worth that much.
In spite of all I take and give -
In spite of all your tenderness,
Sometimes I am not glad to live.
I am alone, as though I stood
On the highest peak of the tired gray world,
About me only swirling snow,
Above me, endless space unfurled;
With earth hidden and heaven hidden,
And only my own spirit’s pride
To keep me from the peace of those
Who are not lonely, having died.
I posted this poem in an early 2006 entry of mine, but i love it because it describes how i often feel about my life and the world around me. lauren let her boyfriend jon take her car somewhere last night, and he hydroplaned. the car flipped three times and was totaled. at the hospital, jon told the nurses lauren wrecked the car. what the hell? she wasn't even in the car. so today my parents told lauren to move in with jon. she has no car, no phone (because it was in her car during the wreck), and only $300. we are hoping she will get sick of jon's shit and come home. or that jon will get tired of her and leave her. or jon will kill himself in a car accident or get sent to jail. we don't care what happens as long as lauren ends up back at home safely. she is so stupid though. she has nothing because of this guy, and yet she thinks she would die without him. i told her you should never want to end your life over a guy. it's not worth it...only your children are worth that much.