I can't keep doing this
Everybody thinks that i'm happy, funny, wierd, etc. but i'm not. when i'm around people, i try to be funny because i don't want people feeling bad for me if i be myself. but when i'm alone, my real personality comes out. going online is the best for me, because i can easily hide my emotions. I hate leading thi "double life", but i don't want to be myself. last night at nicks party, i proved my point. at the begining, i was my strange and funny self. but later towards the end, i was me SELF self. when i brought my real personality out, a bunch of people came around me and were ike "are you okay? whats wrong?" and my favorite, "why r u over in loner ville?" cuz i want u to leave me alone! Then me nicole and missy went outside and everyone followed us. man it was annoying. so that is why i try to be funny, so everyone isn't feeling sorry for me.