if you could be my punk rock princess ♥
lets see ♥
this weekends been ok so far. friday i had my swim test for crew which was silly as usual.. coach sang us a song about a dinosaur named dorothy and a whole bunch of other stuff. after that i went to the gym for a couple hours so by the time i got home i was exhausted but carly convinced me to go bowling with her. that was pretty boring.. basically i just sat there and tried not to fall asleep. this morning i got up early and went to GAMS to work the science expo. jessica picked me up at 11 and we went to our crew coin drop.. that was fun as always. "oh no.. this couldnt be more UNEXPECTED." and singing buttercup for all the people. oh boy i love my crew family. then i went back to GAMS for a couple more hours.. jessica picked me up again and we just went driving around. we stopped at barnes and nobles and played the i spy books. after we did that for a little while jess took me home.. where ive just been hanging around since then.
the last few days have been kinda weird. im so complicated that i dont even understand myself sometimes.. like ill think i want something but then i have a chance to have it and suddenly i dont anymore. and then theres things i know i shouldnt want and the fact that i want them totally doesnt make sense considering im ME, but i guess in certain situations we can all surprise ourselves. today someone was telling me that ive changed.. it got me thinking. a couple months ago i probably would have denied that.. but in some ways i really am different. its not like its BAD thing, but i dont know if its good either. i understand more than i used to and i just see things diffrently. if id been in a situation like this a year ago.. well actually i wouldnt have been in a situation like this a year ago. i just wouldnt have let it happen. but a lot has changed.. over the last year ive said and done a lot of things i swore i never would. it happens.. life doesnt go according to plan. you never end up being exactly who you thought you would. maybe some things i want to do now arent the kind of things i would have wanted before.. but that doesnt necessarily mean theyre wrong either. it is what it is.. and im tired of overanalyzing and thinking so much. who cares if i make a mistake.. as long as it was something that i wanted at some point in time i wont regret it. and deep down i know im still the same person.. maybe i handle certain things differently but im still the same girl i was before.
prom is sooo soon. i really need a date. idk what to do. ugh.
ok im going to practice guitar cause im nerdy like that and then go to sleep.
♥
this weekends been ok so far. friday i had my swim test for crew which was silly as usual.. coach sang us a song about a dinosaur named dorothy and a whole bunch of other stuff. after that i went to the gym for a couple hours so by the time i got home i was exhausted but carly convinced me to go bowling with her. that was pretty boring.. basically i just sat there and tried not to fall asleep. this morning i got up early and went to GAMS to work the science expo. jessica picked me up at 11 and we went to our crew coin drop.. that was fun as always. "oh no.. this couldnt be more UNEXPECTED." and singing buttercup for all the people. oh boy i love my crew family. then i went back to GAMS for a couple more hours.. jessica picked me up again and we just went driving around. we stopped at barnes and nobles and played the i spy books. after we did that for a little while jess took me home.. where ive just been hanging around since then.
the last few days have been kinda weird. im so complicated that i dont even understand myself sometimes.. like ill think i want something but then i have a chance to have it and suddenly i dont anymore. and then theres things i know i shouldnt want and the fact that i want them totally doesnt make sense considering im ME, but i guess in certain situations we can all surprise ourselves. today someone was telling me that ive changed.. it got me thinking. a couple months ago i probably would have denied that.. but in some ways i really am different. its not like its BAD thing, but i dont know if its good either. i understand more than i used to and i just see things diffrently. if id been in a situation like this a year ago.. well actually i wouldnt have been in a situation like this a year ago. i just wouldnt have let it happen. but a lot has changed.. over the last year ive said and done a lot of things i swore i never would. it happens.. life doesnt go according to plan. you never end up being exactly who you thought you would. maybe some things i want to do now arent the kind of things i would have wanted before.. but that doesnt necessarily mean theyre wrong either. it is what it is.. and im tired of overanalyzing and thinking so much. who cares if i make a mistake.. as long as it was something that i wanted at some point in time i wont regret it. and deep down i know im still the same person.. maybe i handle certain things differently but im still the same girl i was before.
prom is sooo soon. i really need a date. idk what to do. ugh.
ok im going to practice guitar cause im nerdy like that and then go to sleep.
♥