Un/necessary purchase
I just spent money on something that I already have. Technically I do not need to spend this money, nor do I need a new Blu-Ray player, because I have one already. But I bought a new one anyway, to exorcise some juju.
Last Christmas, Actor Guy got me a Blu-Ray player. His intention was so that I could access his Netflix account and watch some of the shows and movies that he kept telling me I should see. As it turned out, the one he ordered didn't have wireless Internet connectivity, making for a difficult set-up, so he took back the bargain one he bought me and exchanged it for a more expensive one with wireless Internet. By the time he'd gotten the better one and installed it, it was March and he was already acting strangely. But I kept making excuses for him, because even though he was starting to seem distant and stopped wanting to touch me, I looked to gestures of kindness such as the Blu-Ray player installation and thought, No, I think he's still in this. Man, I was blinded by love.
Anyway, when I received the Blu-Ray player, I remember thinking it was a nice gift but also sort of unnecessary. Through the company I work for, I have access to deep discounts on entertainment electronics, and of a higher quality/brand than the one that AG gave me. I unwrapped the player and thought, Hmm, he does know that I can easily get a Blu-Ray player if I wanted, right? One better than this one? But not wanting to look a gift-horse in the mouth, I expressed enthusiasm and appreciation.
I watched a few episodes of a show he'd urged on me from his Netflix account, but after the breakup, I couldn't bring myself to turn on the player. I didn't want to discover the precise moment that he'd changed the password; for that matter, I didn't want to use the account. I work for a company that creates video apps, and the Blu-Ray player that he gave me didn't carry my company's app. The one that I could get through my own company does carry our app. So if I wanted to check out how my company's app was doing or even to personally use it, I couldn't do it from home.
So today, I took advantage of a pre-Black Friday sale on electronics through my company and ended up getting a totally new, better quality Blu-Ray player -- with access to the app that my team works on -- for $67.49 ($73.40 after tax). A part of me feels guilty. I have a new, barely used Blu-Ray player at home. I hardly ever watch DVDs, I don't have Netflix and I don't own a single Blu-Ray disc. I could use the $74 bucks I spent (includes tax) on Christmas gifts or things that I actually need, like groceries or gas, or apply it towards my hefty cable bill (I do have HBO!).
But another part of me wants to exorcise this bit of AG away. Something about this gift always rubbed me the wrong way, unlike all his other thoughtful, generous gifts (I love my Kindle, I have no problem with the iPhone case he gave me, I'm happy with my super-lightweight sleeping bag, and I love the necklace he gave me, though I don't know if I'll ever wear it again). Before AG, I received sheets from R. for Christmas and have no problem with using those. I don't need to exorcise R. with a different set of sheets. So I'm having trouble justifying this particular purchase. But I did it anyway, and I'm not really sorry.
Anyone want a barely used Blu-Ray player?
Last Christmas, Actor Guy got me a Blu-Ray player. His intention was so that I could access his Netflix account and watch some of the shows and movies that he kept telling me I should see. As it turned out, the one he ordered didn't have wireless Internet connectivity, making for a difficult set-up, so he took back the bargain one he bought me and exchanged it for a more expensive one with wireless Internet. By the time he'd gotten the better one and installed it, it was March and he was already acting strangely. But I kept making excuses for him, because even though he was starting to seem distant and stopped wanting to touch me, I looked to gestures of kindness such as the Blu-Ray player installation and thought, No, I think he's still in this. Man, I was blinded by love.
Anyway, when I received the Blu-Ray player, I remember thinking it was a nice gift but also sort of unnecessary. Through the company I work for, I have access to deep discounts on entertainment electronics, and of a higher quality/brand than the one that AG gave me. I unwrapped the player and thought, Hmm, he does know that I can easily get a Blu-Ray player if I wanted, right? One better than this one? But not wanting to look a gift-horse in the mouth, I expressed enthusiasm and appreciation.
I watched a few episodes of a show he'd urged on me from his Netflix account, but after the breakup, I couldn't bring myself to turn on the player. I didn't want to discover the precise moment that he'd changed the password; for that matter, I didn't want to use the account. I work for a company that creates video apps, and the Blu-Ray player that he gave me didn't carry my company's app. The one that I could get through my own company does carry our app. So if I wanted to check out how my company's app was doing or even to personally use it, I couldn't do it from home.
So today, I took advantage of a pre-Black Friday sale on electronics through my company and ended up getting a totally new, better quality Blu-Ray player -- with access to the app that my team works on -- for $67.49 ($73.40 after tax). A part of me feels guilty. I have a new, barely used Blu-Ray player at home. I hardly ever watch DVDs, I don't have Netflix and I don't own a single Blu-Ray disc. I could use the $74 bucks I spent (includes tax) on Christmas gifts or things that I actually need, like groceries or gas, or apply it towards my hefty cable bill (I do have HBO!).
But another part of me wants to exorcise this bit of AG away. Something about this gift always rubbed me the wrong way, unlike all his other thoughtful, generous gifts (I love my Kindle, I have no problem with the iPhone case he gave me, I'm happy with my super-lightweight sleeping bag, and I love the necklace he gave me, though I don't know if I'll ever wear it again). Before AG, I received sheets from R. for Christmas and have no problem with using those. I don't need to exorcise R. with a different set of sheets. So I'm having trouble justifying this particular purchase. But I did it anyway, and I'm not really sorry.
Anyone want a barely used Blu-Ray player?