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man i really hate to sound emo or anything but it always seems like once ive solved one problem another pops right back up. all in all i think this summer has been very good, but i just wish i could truly be like fucking ecstatic. like you know those people who just seem completely fine with everything, i just want that. and i dont mean to make people think that everything is like terrible for me, but i just wish i could be like satisfied, and not have to think about something and get a gut wrenching feeling.
so anyways, i really want to learn to play an instrument, like amazingly bad. i think the piano would be the one for me? but guitar is so cool also!!! i just love listening to music so much, i want in on that creativity type thing!! i always find myself signing songs in my head, and just putting words together, and i want music to go along with this! i need some right-side-of-the-brain action in my life, and i think music will be the place to release such energy.
now that i have my license, i want a car!!!!! wicked, mad, super-duper bad! but school starts soon, which means reduced hours for work and im not sure ill be able to afford a car so i want to wait a bit to see how my finances look during my new schedule. that is the responsible thing to do i mean, but there is this part of me that wants!!! no neeeeds!!! a car soon, driving around in the van late at night listening to my tunes is every-fucking-thing i expected it to be. i think that is one of my favorite things to do!!! i dont even care about gas prices, i would glady pay for gas to have the mind-expanding experience of driving around listening to tunes! phewwwww!!!
i saw this movie "the island" recently with some friends. and let me tell you! i loved it. it raised so many questions inside of me about how i feel about some things, and it was ridiculously entertaining, i just had so much fun watching it!!!
so how about this entry huh??? it was crazy i know but it was fun writing it hahahaha. k bye
so anyways, i really want to learn to play an instrument, like amazingly bad. i think the piano would be the one for me? but guitar is so cool also!!! i just love listening to music so much, i want in on that creativity type thing!! i always find myself signing songs in my head, and just putting words together, and i want music to go along with this! i need some right-side-of-the-brain action in my life, and i think music will be the place to release such energy.
now that i have my license, i want a car!!!!! wicked, mad, super-duper bad! but school starts soon, which means reduced hours for work and im not sure ill be able to afford a car so i want to wait a bit to see how my finances look during my new schedule. that is the responsible thing to do i mean, but there is this part of me that wants!!! no neeeeds!!! a car soon, driving around in the van late at night listening to my tunes is every-fucking-thing i expected it to be. i think that is one of my favorite things to do!!! i dont even care about gas prices, i would glady pay for gas to have the mind-expanding experience of driving around listening to tunes! phewwwww!!!
i saw this movie "the island" recently with some friends. and let me tell you! i loved it. it raised so many questions inside of me about how i feel about some things, and it was ridiculously entertaining, i just had so much fun watching it!!!
so how about this entry huh??? it was crazy i know but it was fun writing it hahahaha. k bye