Growing up
Last night was...well it was sick. I decided that I was going to get trashed and ended up puking around 10 times..two of those times included pucking all over myself. Lets just say when I woke up this morning I was far from cheery..
I have to go to work today. Not saying I am not enthused about it...I just get tired of waiting on people over and over..It isn't the people that I get sick of, I just don't like serving...
I can't determine what I want to do, with my life, with today, with this hour..I am confused about a lot of things.. I guess I can't wait around and expect people to make my decisions for me. It is nice having your parents still pay your bills and make your appointments. BUt, I think it is time I grow up. They are always telling me I need to do things by myself. I guess this is the point where I liberate myself.
I'm scared.
I can feel the tears forming in my eyes already. The fear of growing up overwhelms every aspect of me. I'm only 19 and I know what I must do. I can't rest on my ways as they are. I am to indecisive, to emotional, and to...well, to me...
Today is the day I grow up...
I'm going to take the responsibility of everything..No more basing my life on everyone else's choices. The only way I am going to get anything in my life is if I do it myself..and I will do just that...
I have to go to work today. Not saying I am not enthused about it...I just get tired of waiting on people over and over..It isn't the people that I get sick of, I just don't like serving...
I can't determine what I want to do, with my life, with today, with this hour..I am confused about a lot of things.. I guess I can't wait around and expect people to make my decisions for me. It is nice having your parents still pay your bills and make your appointments. BUt, I think it is time I grow up. They are always telling me I need to do things by myself. I guess this is the point where I liberate myself.
I'm scared.
I can feel the tears forming in my eyes already. The fear of growing up overwhelms every aspect of me. I'm only 19 and I know what I must do. I can't rest on my ways as they are. I am to indecisive, to emotional, and to...well, to me...
Today is the day I grow up...
I'm going to take the responsibility of everything..No more basing my life on everyone else's choices. The only way I am going to get anything in my life is if I do it myself..and I will do just that...