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i havent written in this in a while
so im taking the liberty to do so now while i still remember and have the time too
ive been so busy :\
i hate haveing to fit school and homework into my schedule, it makes life so much harder but in return i do get an education and the chance to 'expand my horizons' which i do have many on my mind...some not including school at all, but i just hate the thought of not having the courage or will power to do so.
i just wish school didnt have to take up most of my day and then to come home to my dad wanting to plan my day out when i still have to do homework and chores around the house. i never have time to do things i want to do...it makes me feel like shit. really like today i stepped in the door and he was like your going to san fransisco tomorrow...dont you think i have plans?? to do things i want to do this weekend.
it would be fun yeh but i wanted to do my own things...i miss people, i miss old times, i miss being missed.
i woke up on wedesday at like 530 and i had to finish a project for my first period so i was like ok what to do, the next thing i know, a big ugly ass spider the size of a fucking quarter crawled on my leg, i wasnt even awake yet and i started having a panic attack, not knowing what the fuck to do, i was so fucking freaked out...i knocked it off my leg and jumped off and found a school book and smashed the shit out of it. that woke me up for sure
i thank davey for calling me up monday and wedesday just to kick it and bullshit and smoke some pot. hes a funny mother fucker. hes awsome though.
so im taking the liberty to do so now while i still remember and have the time too
ive been so busy :\
i hate haveing to fit school and homework into my schedule, it makes life so much harder but in return i do get an education and the chance to 'expand my horizons' which i do have many on my mind...some not including school at all, but i just hate the thought of not having the courage or will power to do so.
i just wish school didnt have to take up most of my day and then to come home to my dad wanting to plan my day out when i still have to do homework and chores around the house. i never have time to do things i want to do...it makes me feel like shit. really like today i stepped in the door and he was like your going to san fransisco tomorrow...dont you think i have plans?? to do things i want to do this weekend.
it would be fun yeh but i wanted to do my own things...i miss people, i miss old times, i miss being missed.
i woke up on wedesday at like 530 and i had to finish a project for my first period so i was like ok what to do, the next thing i know, a big ugly ass spider the size of a fucking quarter crawled on my leg, i wasnt even awake yet and i started having a panic attack, not knowing what the fuck to do, i was so fucking freaked out...i knocked it off my leg and jumped off and found a school book and smashed the shit out of it. that woke me up for sure
i thank davey for calling me up monday and wedesday just to kick it and bullshit and smoke some pot. hes a funny mother fucker. hes awsome though.