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Well yet again its been a while...i tend to wait a bit before I even bother to remember i HAVE an account on this site lol...and to think of how often i used to use it...crazy. Anyway life has been...rough. lol i mean nothing so amazingly huge i can't deal, but a bunch of things have been fucking up lately.
It all started with me and trevor..i realize now its all our fault. lol, not to really blame us...but...ach, anyway a good while ago we had nic, curtis and brock over at trevors for a hotboxing nite, but nic had just got suspended from school and his mom didnt want him going out, he did anyway and she said he should bring some stuff with him (implying the whole...kicking him out dealy) anyway he just shrugged it off cuz he assumed she would just let him back in the house (don't really know what he was thinking...:S) anyway he ended up NOT being able to get back in the house, and then stayed the nite at trevors with me and...well...trevor. Then i brought him home with me...thats when things went wrong. My mom had been curious for a while about why nic always got kicked out and shit, and so while i was at school she talked to nic's mom and the shit definately hit the fan. Nic's mom told her about all of nic's habits, along with kyron, brock and john, and josh. She didnt say anything about me. About a ...i duno week later? maybe not even that...my mom was tlaking to tamika's mom and tamika's mom told ehr about me, which...was going to happen sooner or later, i was pretty prepared at this point, because of all the drama with nic (him, kyron, brock and john aren't allowed in my house by the way) so when she came downstairs and said "Azlynn im gunna ask you a question and i need you to promise me to tell the truth" i was pretty sure that is was all over. Every adventure, every fun night (along with the bad nights) were over. So we had a conversation and it was a really big blow to her...but hey...i think we all handled it well, i didnt get grounded or even mildly punished (except for promising to quit which i tell you is punishment enough) i did promise and im keeping this promise.
It's been a good...ahh i dunt even know, week? 2? 3? ach...well its been a little while now and im not doing too shabby, not like i was addicted, i just...really enjoyed myself. I get urges sometimes, REALLY bad lately, i was ready to just say fuck it and smoke a bowl, but i know i can;t i won't only be dissapointing my mother but i'll be proving to myself once and for all that i have NO self control at all, and im ruled by my addictive personality. ANYWAY! on we go to the next load of crap
Well it was all going good for a little while...i mean nic was slowing down, so was trevor, tamika pretty much quit and mostly everyone is at least slowing down. BUT nic and trevor still did it, just less. On 4/20 trevor went to nic's to celebrate, and they went out earlier int he afternoon, only to find (to their great disspointment) nic's door locked when they god back. Nic's parents had locked them out, so they broke in (just took the screen off a window and got in, not really that big of a deal in my opinion) and nic's mom FREAKED, she made trevor leave, and he had to walk to my house, and then wait (it was a pretty cold day....really sucked for him:( ) for about ....3-4 hours at my house till we got back (it was emily's confirmation). yep.
Next up, Nic's idiocy reaches a whole new level. Now nic had already been becoming pretty pathetic, he ahd been selling movies to get money, and then friday nite he sold his xbox to get alcohol (and im assuming pot? not sure) for a party friday nite. Also him and kyron planeed to get a taxi home, and then run away from it without paying, now i didnt ask them if they did this, i dont think they did (kyron mentioned hitch-hiking ....sooo much better...dumb fucks..lol) and then the shit hit the fan all the way for nic, his parents found out about EVERYTHING. I mean they already knew abotu his habits, but they were happy recently cuz he was going for therapy and all that crap (mainly to get back into my house...cuz my mom wouldnt let him back till he quit....riiite...) so they found out about him selling THEIR movies for pot money, and then his xbox, apparently they got it back from where he sold it, and they called the movie place he ahd been selling to and told them what he had been doing. His mom also called people's parents and told them about things (i think she just called brock and kyron? my mom already knew...so did johns and she doesnt know any other numbers im pretty sure) then they told nic (i havent talked to him since last week, tamika bumped into him the other day and he told her everything) that he was kicked out, and could stay the nite there to sleep and stay there on school days but that was it, im pretty sure tamika said he couldnt eat, but i wont be sure of anything till i talk to him.
I'm so worried...i feel like its partly my responsibility to make everything better for him, but that can't be done until he smartens up. He has to quit now, this isn't just a fun toke every now and then, this is him putting his family life and future down the drain. Ach, im pretty sure he's okay toninte, but i still am hoping...that he's gunna be okay. Damn that kid, he worries the shit out of me. I feel like a cranky mother or something...except im not old and mean...well i guess i have my mean moments:P hehe
anywho im off, snuggle time :)
Thanks to whoever actually took the time to read that monster of an entry.
Peace<3
Xo Azlynn
It all started with me and trevor..i realize now its all our fault. lol, not to really blame us...but...ach, anyway a good while ago we had nic, curtis and brock over at trevors for a hotboxing nite, but nic had just got suspended from school and his mom didnt want him going out, he did anyway and she said he should bring some stuff with him (implying the whole...kicking him out dealy) anyway he just shrugged it off cuz he assumed she would just let him back in the house (don't really know what he was thinking...:S) anyway he ended up NOT being able to get back in the house, and then stayed the nite at trevors with me and...well...trevor. Then i brought him home with me...thats when things went wrong. My mom had been curious for a while about why nic always got kicked out and shit, and so while i was at school she talked to nic's mom and the shit definately hit the fan. Nic's mom told her about all of nic's habits, along with kyron, brock and john, and josh. She didnt say anything about me. About a ...i duno week later? maybe not even that...my mom was tlaking to tamika's mom and tamika's mom told ehr about me, which...was going to happen sooner or later, i was pretty prepared at this point, because of all the drama with nic (him, kyron, brock and john aren't allowed in my house by the way) so when she came downstairs and said "Azlynn im gunna ask you a question and i need you to promise me to tell the truth" i was pretty sure that is was all over. Every adventure, every fun night (along with the bad nights) were over. So we had a conversation and it was a really big blow to her...but hey...i think we all handled it well, i didnt get grounded or even mildly punished (except for promising to quit which i tell you is punishment enough) i did promise and im keeping this promise.
It's been a good...ahh i dunt even know, week? 2? 3? ach...well its been a little while now and im not doing too shabby, not like i was addicted, i just...really enjoyed myself. I get urges sometimes, REALLY bad lately, i was ready to just say fuck it and smoke a bowl, but i know i can;t i won't only be dissapointing my mother but i'll be proving to myself once and for all that i have NO self control at all, and im ruled by my addictive personality. ANYWAY! on we go to the next load of crap
Well it was all going good for a little while...i mean nic was slowing down, so was trevor, tamika pretty much quit and mostly everyone is at least slowing down. BUT nic and trevor still did it, just less. On 4/20 trevor went to nic's to celebrate, and they went out earlier int he afternoon, only to find (to their great disspointment) nic's door locked when they god back. Nic's parents had locked them out, so they broke in (just took the screen off a window and got in, not really that big of a deal in my opinion) and nic's mom FREAKED, she made trevor leave, and he had to walk to my house, and then wait (it was a pretty cold day....really sucked for him:( ) for about ....3-4 hours at my house till we got back (it was emily's confirmation). yep.
Next up, Nic's idiocy reaches a whole new level. Now nic had already been becoming pretty pathetic, he ahd been selling movies to get money, and then friday nite he sold his xbox to get alcohol (and im assuming pot? not sure) for a party friday nite. Also him and kyron planeed to get a taxi home, and then run away from it without paying, now i didnt ask them if they did this, i dont think they did (kyron mentioned hitch-hiking ....sooo much better...dumb fucks..lol) and then the shit hit the fan all the way for nic, his parents found out about EVERYTHING. I mean they already knew abotu his habits, but they were happy recently cuz he was going for therapy and all that crap (mainly to get back into my house...cuz my mom wouldnt let him back till he quit....riiite...) so they found out about him selling THEIR movies for pot money, and then his xbox, apparently they got it back from where he sold it, and they called the movie place he ahd been selling to and told them what he had been doing. His mom also called people's parents and told them about things (i think she just called brock and kyron? my mom already knew...so did johns and she doesnt know any other numbers im pretty sure) then they told nic (i havent talked to him since last week, tamika bumped into him the other day and he told her everything) that he was kicked out, and could stay the nite there to sleep and stay there on school days but that was it, im pretty sure tamika said he couldnt eat, but i wont be sure of anything till i talk to him.
I'm so worried...i feel like its partly my responsibility to make everything better for him, but that can't be done until he smartens up. He has to quit now, this isn't just a fun toke every now and then, this is him putting his family life and future down the drain. Ach, im pretty sure he's okay toninte, but i still am hoping...that he's gunna be okay. Damn that kid, he worries the shit out of me. I feel like a cranky mother or something...except im not old and mean...well i guess i have my mean moments:P hehe
anywho im off, snuggle time :)
Thanks to whoever actually took the time to read that monster of an entry.
Peace<3
Xo Azlynn