Le sigh*
Well i dunnoim just sitting here listening to my new system cd *dances a jig* and im just thinking about things...like...every entry you look at on livejournal or any site people just whine and bitch about how horrible their lives are and the only things people seem to care about is random shit like gossip and no one really cares about what your talking about unless its some really interesting story (which tends to be horrible...because face it humans love violence) *sigh* i dunno...im not saying im not like this ohhh no man i could rate top 10 gurls that bitch about their lives lol i was just thinking...yup. Holy frigin god ...hahaha scotty's (my moms bf) daughter (i just recently discovered this) is a complete moron...its hilarious... they (her and her friend Kalen) stayed the nite with scotty about a week ago...on a saturday nite and oh god they are the dumbest little brats i've ever met. My first impression of her when we met was that she was a bitch and my mom clarified that (dunt thinki spelt that rite...) with stories she told me of shit that happened at scotty's,anywho..jesus these gurlswere over and me and josh almost fucking STRANGLED them. I swear to god i fi had a cleaver....MWAHA. Well one of the things was.. Brittnay made one of those quizzes you make for your friendsya know? everyone's made one...anywho SHE took HER own quiz...and get this...She got an 80% on it. un-freakin-believable. also...one of the questions was "how much hair do i have" and the answer was a lot...well when we looked at that question (and answer) she said "its true!! the hairdresser said so!!!" *whips out shotgun* ya i know i may be a blonde and im not the smartest person ever...but holy shit at least i have common sense and no way in HELL am i that blonde.
i've started to notice seomthing about myself...or really how people percieve me..i present myself differently to different people..i mean some people look at me as a dumb blonde, some as a gurl who won't wear anything but hoodies or black shirts...and im percieved as kinda hateful a lot. (which does tend to be true) some see me as bubbly..iunno. its weird.i think i described my situation and thoughts incorrectly but im none too good at explaining things...so your gunna have to suck it up.
Another thing is im starting to freak out...6 weeks and counting till josh is gone and i dont think im really going to express all my feelings on the issue right now because i might start crying again and where would that get me eh? EH? lol...it just sucks...lol to anyone who doesnt know me and reads this would thinnk i dont care...a lot would actually..becuase of the way i explain things. By the time i explain a bad situation im usually under a great deal of self control and when i explain it to someone i kinda brush it off like i dont care...whereas if i just learn about something it just hits me like a fucking brick in the face and i have no control whatsoever...hmm dunt think that is even a word. I think its so odd how im an emotional wreck around some people and with others its like i dont give a shit..interesting. Well i've sure said a lot...i guess kinda making up for not having as much entries as i used to...but i have a journal now so whenever something happens and i need somekinda of outlet...no matter where i am i can write. its nice.
i've started to notice seomthing about myself...or really how people percieve me..i present myself differently to different people..i mean some people look at me as a dumb blonde, some as a gurl who won't wear anything but hoodies or black shirts...and im percieved as kinda hateful a lot. (which does tend to be true) some see me as bubbly..iunno. its weird.i think i described my situation and thoughts incorrectly but im none too good at explaining things...so your gunna have to suck it up.
Another thing is im starting to freak out...6 weeks and counting till josh is gone and i dont think im really going to express all my feelings on the issue right now because i might start crying again and where would that get me eh? EH? lol...it just sucks...lol to anyone who doesnt know me and reads this would thinnk i dont care...a lot would actually..becuase of the way i explain things. By the time i explain a bad situation im usually under a great deal of self control and when i explain it to someone i kinda brush it off like i dont care...whereas if i just learn about something it just hits me like a fucking brick in the face and i have no control whatsoever...hmm dunt think that is even a word. I think its so odd how im an emotional wreck around some people and with others its like i dont give a shit..interesting. Well i've sure said a lot...i guess kinda making up for not having as much entries as i used to...but i have a journal now so whenever something happens and i need somekinda of outlet...no matter where i am i can write. its nice.