I needa write in this here hummer
the last 2 weeks of my life, crazy as retarded crazy could be!
work=sucks!
life = sucks even more!!
So theres the new guy in my life...Morgan....that is all im saying right now! weve been dating since may 21st....
im going thru a pretty rocky part of life right now, and i dont know how im not resorting to drugs and alcohol, i guess work keeps my mind off everything
I miss Matt more than ever, like weve been apart a lot before, but i miss him more then ever now, I wish he was here to help and talk me thru all this shit...he is in a sense, but not physically, it would be great just to have a hug from him....i feel soooo secure with him...blah i need to clone him, so i can take him whereever i am.
In substitution of Matteh...Candace is been my confidant...And I am forever grateful of her for that....shes pullin me out of my rut, and you have no idea how much she has helped me...i could kiss her little toes...in the last week even, weve gotten closer, gawd i miss her friendship, and Im super excited that she wants to move to HFX, i hate that im there and shes here, bc I never get to see her that way, and we had a great friendship at one point, inseperable...she was my hip attachement, and I quite liked it, i want it back...I want it back!
*Sigh*
Im confused.....life is confusing me its throwing me obsticles...and i need to avoid them, and after this is all over, i think i will probably push everyone close to me away, bc i know myself and i can feel myslef pushing the world away already...and Im going to try not to, and to all of you that I do, IM sorry....please just give me time and understand
well thats enough
Mariah
work=sucks!
life = sucks even more!!
So theres the new guy in my life...Morgan....that is all im saying right now! weve been dating since may 21st....
im going thru a pretty rocky part of life right now, and i dont know how im not resorting to drugs and alcohol, i guess work keeps my mind off everything
I miss Matt more than ever, like weve been apart a lot before, but i miss him more then ever now, I wish he was here to help and talk me thru all this shit...he is in a sense, but not physically, it would be great just to have a hug from him....i feel soooo secure with him...blah i need to clone him, so i can take him whereever i am.
In substitution of Matteh...Candace is been my confidant...And I am forever grateful of her for that....shes pullin me out of my rut, and you have no idea how much she has helped me...i could kiss her little toes...in the last week even, weve gotten closer, gawd i miss her friendship, and Im super excited that she wants to move to HFX, i hate that im there and shes here, bc I never get to see her that way, and we had a great friendship at one point, inseperable...she was my hip attachement, and I quite liked it, i want it back...I want it back!
*Sigh*
Im confused.....life is confusing me its throwing me obsticles...and i need to avoid them, and after this is all over, i think i will probably push everyone close to me away, bc i know myself and i can feel myslef pushing the world away already...and Im going to try not to, and to all of you that I do, IM sorry....please just give me time and understand
well thats enough
Mariah