Continous cycle of an emotional rollercoaster...
Really guys....I need something to stop the madness...Sleep is non existant anymore...really everything is leaking everywhere.....even into my dreams now! I dreampt about burying my friends tonight....how messed up is that...I cant stand graveyards, but i was burying my friends...guys im terrified of the dark and death! and its almost like someone knows that ...and they are taunting me, waving it in front of my face....if i didn't have music and tv, i wouldn't get through many nights!
Like tonight, i wake up after 2 hours of restless sleep bc of the horrid dream that i was having, my mom was in it, and chris voughn and jackie and matt...man....i was like burying matt kendrick...jon, my teachers from high school, my dad! GUYS....*scared!*
oh boy...anyways moving on with life...I really like Ingram Hill! Their music is ...almost like its touching...*sigh* I miss matt...shut up ...hes my best friend, i just miss him!
So today jackie and i had another one of our excursions...not really, heres what happend...
i got up at like 830, i went with her for 11 to kia to get a oil change, and then we went to the theatre in bwater to see if there was a matinee...they dont have them *GAY* then i saw a old friend...she was oggling me...LOL she was like MARIAH you lost soo much weight, you look soo amazing...look at those eyes..im like whatever...wear black...honestly..lol LMAO!
so then we went home...made pizza, pasta salad, and spinach salad at jackies house and ripped a techno cd for the car and headed for the good ol town of liverpool! Nothing was going on, so we picked up Matt K and Josh W, and went to see the movie the day after tomorrow...it was NOT as good as i wanted it to be...they drug it out sooo badly...frig...i waited like 4 months for that movie*Annoyed* we should have gone and saw mean girls or something!!!BLAH
so then we drove to summerville to pick up my car from mims work, and then we came back here...with matt K...lol *rolls eyes* i ended up sleeping on my love seat in my room...i was letting jackie and matt have moments...lol then i wake up 2 hours later...and they aren't in my bed...they are in the spare room...door shut....hmmmm..what is going on there*taps fingers* I DO NOT KNOW! HAHA right!my alarm is going to go off in like an hour...woot!
so today is a new day...im going to strive for the best of me....its going to be a rough and bumpy ride! I need to do something different....be more of something and less of other things...how tho?haha ill figure it out...anywho i love everyone.....*pokes yall*
*yawns* Its going to be a long day at work today!
YIPPEEE
~MIMI
Like tonight, i wake up after 2 hours of restless sleep bc of the horrid dream that i was having, my mom was in it, and chris voughn and jackie and matt...man....i was like burying matt kendrick...jon, my teachers from high school, my dad! GUYS....*scared!*
oh boy...anyways moving on with life...I really like Ingram Hill! Their music is ...almost like its touching...*sigh* I miss matt...shut up ...hes my best friend, i just miss him!
So today jackie and i had another one of our excursions...not really, heres what happend...
i got up at like 830, i went with her for 11 to kia to get a oil change, and then we went to the theatre in bwater to see if there was a matinee...they dont have them *GAY* then i saw a old friend...she was oggling me...LOL she was like MARIAH you lost soo much weight, you look soo amazing...look at those eyes..im like whatever...wear black...honestly..lol LMAO!
so then we went home...made pizza, pasta salad, and spinach salad at jackies house and ripped a techno cd for the car and headed for the good ol town of liverpool! Nothing was going on, so we picked up Matt K and Josh W, and went to see the movie the day after tomorrow...it was NOT as good as i wanted it to be...they drug it out sooo badly...frig...i waited like 4 months for that movie*Annoyed* we should have gone and saw mean girls or something!!!BLAH
so then we drove to summerville to pick up my car from mims work, and then we came back here...with matt K...lol *rolls eyes* i ended up sleeping on my love seat in my room...i was letting jackie and matt have moments...lol then i wake up 2 hours later...and they aren't in my bed...they are in the spare room...door shut....hmmmm..what is going on there*taps fingers* I DO NOT KNOW! HAHA right!my alarm is going to go off in like an hour...woot!
so today is a new day...im going to strive for the best of me....its going to be a rough and bumpy ride! I need to do something different....be more of something and less of other things...how tho?haha ill figure it out...anywho i love everyone.....*pokes yall*
*yawns* Its going to be a long day at work today!
YIPPEEE
~MIMI