So In L<3VE
I miss him dearly. I miss him a lot.
But the thing is, I just saw him yesterday and the day before. He never skips the vicinity of my thoughts, the memories that I hold dear, the visions that I see from day to day. And sometimes, from these realizations, I realize that he is so lovely to me. So lovely.
I suppose I'm drowning in love, or whatever this tide of rush is. But I'm happy for it - for it and myself. It's these thoughts I never tire of. The touch, the bristles, the calm serenity of lying side by side, breathing in unison, talking about anything where there is not a care in the world about troubles or fear.
I find so much comfort seeing him anywhere. Everywhere.
The feeling of security when lying in his arms, when you can sleep and drift, when you see him sitting on that couch smiling at you - knowing that deep down, his heart murmurs the same mutual feeling - what a feeling of unexpressed happiness and joy that brings to my heart.
I can't imagine what it would be like without him, and I don't want to. Call it a form of communication that doesn't need verbal expression, and plainly, by looking at him, you'll know what I'm talking about.
He's a gentle soul that shines on me. One in which I kiss, I share, and I love.
No kiss can render the softness and tingle of real sincere sensation that envelopes me. The exchange of trust, growth, and bliss - he's my ecstasy, alive and well.
I couldn't ask for more. I really couldn't.
No ambiguity can break this bond - however it has grown - and no disagreements upon certain matters will cause a deterioration in what has become to be now.
I love him moreso than anything. Head over heels, I'm tumbling faster and faster.
That post a few days ago was an instantaneous reaction to something that really meant nothing in our logics. It buried itself the next day, and as newborns, we accepted that differences do set us apart as individuals. However, that's not something we left lying out in the cold - forgotton and unexplained. Those facts did exist. They exemplified a portion of our thoughts, our hate, our anger, our unconveyd feelings of distrust and annoyance. They rounded what we felt in true light of unexposed feelings, but when weighed against to what we really feel, what we think is real - hate and anger came nowhere close to what defines our relationship. No matter what may come about in future experiences, no fumble will stretch this piece of fully woven cloth. Love is too filled in the air for anything to happen.
We are so in love.
A bond that will age with time.
I love you Ehsan.
But the thing is, I just saw him yesterday and the day before. He never skips the vicinity of my thoughts, the memories that I hold dear, the visions that I see from day to day. And sometimes, from these realizations, I realize that he is so lovely to me. So lovely.
I suppose I'm drowning in love, or whatever this tide of rush is. But I'm happy for it - for it and myself. It's these thoughts I never tire of. The touch, the bristles, the calm serenity of lying side by side, breathing in unison, talking about anything where there is not a care in the world about troubles or fear.
I find so much comfort seeing him anywhere. Everywhere.
The feeling of security when lying in his arms, when you can sleep and drift, when you see him sitting on that couch smiling at you - knowing that deep down, his heart murmurs the same mutual feeling - what a feeling of unexpressed happiness and joy that brings to my heart.
I can't imagine what it would be like without him, and I don't want to. Call it a form of communication that doesn't need verbal expression, and plainly, by looking at him, you'll know what I'm talking about.
He's a gentle soul that shines on me. One in which I kiss, I share, and I love.
No kiss can render the softness and tingle of real sincere sensation that envelopes me. The exchange of trust, growth, and bliss - he's my ecstasy, alive and well.
I couldn't ask for more. I really couldn't.
No ambiguity can break this bond - however it has grown - and no disagreements upon certain matters will cause a deterioration in what has become to be now.
I love him moreso than anything. Head over heels, I'm tumbling faster and faster.
That post a few days ago was an instantaneous reaction to something that really meant nothing in our logics. It buried itself the next day, and as newborns, we accepted that differences do set us apart as individuals. However, that's not something we left lying out in the cold - forgotton and unexplained. Those facts did exist. They exemplified a portion of our thoughts, our hate, our anger, our unconveyd feelings of distrust and annoyance. They rounded what we felt in true light of unexposed feelings, but when weighed against to what we really feel, what we think is real - hate and anger came nowhere close to what defines our relationship. No matter what may come about in future experiences, no fumble will stretch this piece of fully woven cloth. Love is too filled in the air for anything to happen.
We are so in love.
A bond that will age with time.
I love you Ehsan.