I don't even know what to call this.
"So I think Dustin's cousin was hitting on you Matt."
"wait....what?"
"Yeah, she was hitting on you....pretty serious like."
*insert further explanation about the flirting that was going on.*
"WELL FUCK. Too bad she has a boyfriend...Well HAD a boyfriend...they broke up recently."
"Did she break up with him for YOU?"
"I don't know, but I'd feel like shit if she did, I mean the poor guy is in Afghanistan."
"Yeah you'd feel bad until that shirt came off!"
"Hahahahahahahaha so true"
"Yeah it'd be like this....wow I feel bad abou.....WOW....UM..."
"Hahahahaha....man if only."
*insert dazed look on his face as he fascinates about the possibilities...that same look that I have on my face when I thought about him.*
WELL FUCK.
and what did I do during the entire conversation? Grin and bore it. I couldn't get up and leave, or breakdown like I want to now, and feel like i'm starting to....that would just give it all away.
How could I have been so stupid?????
WHY did I let my guard down? I thought i could trust him. I thought it would all be okay, but nope! Thats not going to happen.
I feel like such a fool, and such an idiot. I should have seen this coming. I should have known that he wasn't interested, that he didn't want anything to do with it, with me.
I mean I even actually put EFFORT behind looking presentable today. Not for his sake either, I wasn't even supposed to see him, but then chance encounter led to dinner, which led to us having plans to work out together in 15 minutes.
GOD DAMN IT WHY ARE YOU SO STUPID.
>.<
..........and why can't i still get you out of my head or heart? WHY DOES THIS FUCKING HURT SO MUCH?
"wait....what?"
"Yeah, she was hitting on you....pretty serious like."
*insert further explanation about the flirting that was going on.*
"WELL FUCK. Too bad she has a boyfriend...Well HAD a boyfriend...they broke up recently."
"Did she break up with him for YOU?"
"I don't know, but I'd feel like shit if she did, I mean the poor guy is in Afghanistan."
"Yeah you'd feel bad until that shirt came off!"
"Hahahahahahahaha so true"
"Yeah it'd be like this....wow I feel bad abou.....WOW....UM..."
"Hahahahaha....man if only."
*insert dazed look on his face as he fascinates about the possibilities...that same look that I have on my face when I thought about him.*
WELL FUCK.
and what did I do during the entire conversation? Grin and bore it. I couldn't get up and leave, or breakdown like I want to now, and feel like i'm starting to....that would just give it all away.
How could I have been so stupid?????
WHY did I let my guard down? I thought i could trust him. I thought it would all be okay, but nope! Thats not going to happen.
I feel like such a fool, and such an idiot. I should have seen this coming. I should have known that he wasn't interested, that he didn't want anything to do with it, with me.
I mean I even actually put EFFORT behind looking presentable today. Not for his sake either, I wasn't even supposed to see him, but then chance encounter led to dinner, which led to us having plans to work out together in 15 minutes.
GOD DAMN IT WHY ARE YOU SO STUPID.
>.<
..........and why can't i still get you out of my head or heart? WHY DOES THIS FUCKING HURT SO MUCH?