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UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
He is damn near perfect. Not Dave. Matt. but Life why must you always do this to me? I mean seriously He's almost everything I've ever looked for in a guy. hen we're alone, we have so much fun together, but then add any other people to us and we're the most awkward and fall apart. Explain to me exactly why that happens please. Cause I'm at a loss for it.
And he really is prefect at least the bit of him that I know.
He's a great student, an awesome musician, a music/communications major, and knows his shit. His dream is just to enjoy life and play music. How awesome is that? He has this ability to just let things go (something I DESPERATELY wish I possessed right now) and its just UGH he's awesome. And I want him. But Life YOU PULL THIS SHIT TIME AND TIME AGAIN.
While the first couple nights we were alone the conversation flowed perfectly. He was perfectly at ease with the conversations that we were having. I mean fuck one night we almost drove all the way to my parents house because we were wrapped up in conversation and we completely bypassed the turn for our school. Seriously. And then add other people. The conversation between us is awkward. to the point where I don't even want to talk about anything because its so odd.
Like the other night when Laura and I were having dinner. And then you came and sat with us, WHY WAS IT SO FUCKING AWKWARD BETWEEN US? IT DEFINITELY DIDN'T NEED TO BE! I mean seriously? It was the awkward llama riding on the awkward turtle's back going backwards while being chased by the awkward kraken.....Stop Laughing Life...its not that funny.
But seriously, and then we go to that other concert for Dusin's birthday and SHE comes with. the perfect little blonde bimbo that you guys just FAWN over because look at her. she's perfect. I mean yeah her voice is a little off putting, but she's pretty hot, knows how to hold a conversation and you wanted her to stay and hang out a while. Your signals toward her were pretty clear. I mean I thought we had fun together. that we had chemistry or a bond. but no I saw the way you tried to make sure you were standing next to her, the way all you boys fawned over her. She's perfect. I get it. I know I look like a bloody mess next to her but seriously? did you boys have to take it THAT far? I mean really? UGHHHHH.
The worst part is that I told you things I haven't told ANYONE. because I thought we had that connection. The conversation just flows so well with us. I mean I haven't told you half the stuff I wish we could. Especially about that concert, and the people that were there.
WHY ARE YOU SO EVIL?
I mean this was the song we were screaming at each other....LYRICS SEEM FITTING:
(Its The Smoking Popes. the song is called Pretty Pathetic. Last verse especially.)
Anyways.
LJ I'm tired of this. Make it all just STOP please.
kthanxbai.
Damn it. I hear his voice in my head when he says that when i type it.
I mean I'm even doing the whole snap the rubberband thats around my wrist when I think about him.
I need advice. A drink and advice.
UGHHHHHHH
JUST MAKE IT STOP.
He is damn near perfect. Not Dave. Matt. but Life why must you always do this to me? I mean seriously He's almost everything I've ever looked for in a guy. hen we're alone, we have so much fun together, but then add any other people to us and we're the most awkward and fall apart. Explain to me exactly why that happens please. Cause I'm at a loss for it.
And he really is prefect at least the bit of him that I know.
He's a great student, an awesome musician, a music/communications major, and knows his shit. His dream is just to enjoy life and play music. How awesome is that? He has this ability to just let things go (something I DESPERATELY wish I possessed right now) and its just UGH he's awesome. And I want him. But Life YOU PULL THIS SHIT TIME AND TIME AGAIN.
While the first couple nights we were alone the conversation flowed perfectly. He was perfectly at ease with the conversations that we were having. I mean fuck one night we almost drove all the way to my parents house because we were wrapped up in conversation and we completely bypassed the turn for our school. Seriously. And then add other people. The conversation between us is awkward. to the point where I don't even want to talk about anything because its so odd.
Like the other night when Laura and I were having dinner. And then you came and sat with us, WHY WAS IT SO FUCKING AWKWARD BETWEEN US? IT DEFINITELY DIDN'T NEED TO BE! I mean seriously? It was the awkward llama riding on the awkward turtle's back going backwards while being chased by the awkward kraken.....Stop Laughing Life...its not that funny.
But seriously, and then we go to that other concert for Dusin's birthday and SHE comes with. the perfect little blonde bimbo that you guys just FAWN over because look at her. she's perfect. I mean yeah her voice is a little off putting, but she's pretty hot, knows how to hold a conversation and you wanted her to stay and hang out a while. Your signals toward her were pretty clear. I mean I thought we had fun together. that we had chemistry or a bond. but no I saw the way you tried to make sure you were standing next to her, the way all you boys fawned over her. She's perfect. I get it. I know I look like a bloody mess next to her but seriously? did you boys have to take it THAT far? I mean really? UGHHHHH.
The worst part is that I told you things I haven't told ANYONE. because I thought we had that connection. The conversation just flows so well with us. I mean I haven't told you half the stuff I wish we could. Especially about that concert, and the people that were there.
WHY ARE YOU SO EVIL?
I mean this was the song we were screaming at each other....LYRICS SEEM FITTING:
Click to view(Its The Smoking Popes. the song is called Pretty Pathetic. Last verse especially.)
Anyways.
LJ I'm tired of this. Make it all just STOP please.
kthanxbai.
Damn it. I hear his voice in my head when he says that when i type it.
I mean I'm even doing the whole snap the rubberband thats around my wrist when I think about him.
I need advice. A drink and advice.
UGHHHHHHH
JUST MAKE IT STOP.