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I've decided I'm going to defer my Dip Ed and come back to it next year. Everyone keeps telling me that I should just stick it out because I'm so close to finishing, but I just can't do it any more. I have no love of the course, and I loathe the coursework and lack motivation to undertake any of it. I have two assignments horribly overdue and I don't care. I just don't care.
I've been mulling this over for a good while and I think it's the right thing to do. I'm unhappy, I'm stressed, I'm depressed and I'm incredibly apathetic. This course is just a means to an end. I don't have that higher calling that drives me to need to be a teacher like so many other people. It's simply a way to work in the field I love. Don't get me wrong, I do love teaching, but it's not a path I was put on by some higher power. It's one I walked to get to closer to my destination.
So, I'm going to apply for "intermission" and instead enrol in a Cert IV Training and Assessment. This is going to open some avenues to teach Animal Science and even Dog Grooming at a tertiary level, which is something I want to do. I am thinking I might also enrol in an interest related course, like photography or something artsy, provided I can afford it. I'm going to get a decent job to see me through because the stress of having little money (as well as the fact that while on Teaching Rounds I can't work, and don't get paid) isn't doing me much good. I'm also going to focus on my business, which has been shoved to the wayside for too long now.
Well, that's my agenda, my grand scheme, and I'm hoping it all works. I have the added stress of the 'my dad is a douche' saga that I still have to deal with, and is something I keep pushing aside instead of dealing with it.
And Monash are assholes, and I am so over their bullshit. I'm glad I'm only working there as a casual and the three days a week I am there is enough to totally piss me off. Urgh, over everything!
I've given myself a stress headache...
I've been mulling this over for a good while and I think it's the right thing to do. I'm unhappy, I'm stressed, I'm depressed and I'm incredibly apathetic. This course is just a means to an end. I don't have that higher calling that drives me to need to be a teacher like so many other people. It's simply a way to work in the field I love. Don't get me wrong, I do love teaching, but it's not a path I was put on by some higher power. It's one I walked to get to closer to my destination.
So, I'm going to apply for "intermission" and instead enrol in a Cert IV Training and Assessment. This is going to open some avenues to teach Animal Science and even Dog Grooming at a tertiary level, which is something I want to do. I am thinking I might also enrol in an interest related course, like photography or something artsy, provided I can afford it. I'm going to get a decent job to see me through because the stress of having little money (as well as the fact that while on Teaching Rounds I can't work, and don't get paid) isn't doing me much good. I'm also going to focus on my business, which has been shoved to the wayside for too long now.
Well, that's my agenda, my grand scheme, and I'm hoping it all works. I have the added stress of the 'my dad is a douche' saga that I still have to deal with, and is something I keep pushing aside instead of dealing with it.
And Monash are assholes, and I am so over their bullshit. I'm glad I'm only working there as a casual and the three days a week I am there is enough to totally piss me off. Urgh, over everything!
I've given myself a stress headache...