It's so hot today...it's a good thing I don't drink milk
Ugh it's so hot and muggy in Melbourne and I want this cool change to hurry up and get here D: I hate the heat, and I especially hate humidity, and I have icky boob sweat and everything! I feel groooosss. On the upside, at least we have A/C and a ceiling fan because otherwise I'd die, seriously. I have to keep going out to check on the animals - especially the rabbits - and the poor puppies and bunnies look so hot and restless :( They've got lots of water and shade though, and I hose down the bunny cages and the shade cloth. I think we're in for a stinker of a summer though :/ It seems to alternate, with every other year being ridiculously hot. Last year was relatively mild, so there's a pretty good chance this year will be the bad year.We had an almost 40C day and it's not even officially Summer yet. Granted, it's only a few days away, but that's not the point. It's still Spring dammit! It was one of our hottest Spring days on record. Whoo...
I'm also still marking, so not particularily happy about that. Partly it's because I've been procrastinating, but also because those retarded students (the ones that colluded) are hopeless and yet, even after giving them a deadline I still have to give them more time *sigh*. I did enjoy a few days off from marking when uni finished last week, and played Uncharted and Uncharted 2 :D And Sunday we finished the main story for ACIII. Oh man, heavy ending for a Sunday afternoon ;_;
Lol I'm watching Australia's Beauty and the Geek - I've only seen two eps, so it's not like I follow it or anything, but we met Cody at EBX (he's a friend of a friend, who mod the Zelda website). Oh man, this sounds really awful but...he is so socially awkward. What you see on tv is pretty much him, from the couple of days we spent with him. He's a nice guy, just...awkward. Lol Matt and I were like, "alright, well...we're gonna go look around, so we'll see you at dinner." And we walk off a few metres and turn around to look at something and he's right behind us O_o. We also met a guy that was on a previous season of BatG and he was totally hilarious and cool. I can't remember his name, but god he cracked me up.
I've been really down about my weight. Since my leg op last year I've stacked it on. It's totally my own fault (that and bad genes), and I know I've been eating shit dinners and not exercising enough - especially now that I'm not playing soccer. I've never been as big as this, and I hate it. I've been trying to eat better, and haven't had chocolate or chips at all (chocolate is my vice omg). But I'm so self conscious and can't even stand to look at myself, or even let Matt see me. Not a day goes by that I don't think about it. I know I have to change my lifestyle if I want to lose weight, but idk, it's just not as easy as just eating healthy and going for a walk. I know I can lose weight, I've done it before, I just wish it wasn't so goddamn hard. I totally took being thin in highschool for granted.
I'm also really stressed about finances. It looked like the work I was meant to get over December was going to fall through, but my coordinator managed to convince her boss they needed help. I've got 2 days a week for the next 3 weeks. It's the the original 3 days a week, but at least it's something. I started really freaking out last week when it looked like I wasn't getting work; there is no way I was going to find work for a month, and not on such short notice. I've got overdue bills (including my car rego D:) and with Christmas coming up, yeah I'm stressed. I got a bit overwhelmed last week, with work, with this marking bs, finances, and the fact that I did a really shit job on my exam - the one that I should have aced. I feel like I'm not doing anything wth my life, and I doubt my abilities as a good teacher. I feel like I kinda failed because of the fact that I'm a teacher - you know the saying, "those who can, do; those who can't, teach". I know how important teachers are, but Idk, I'm just feeling sorry for myself.
OMG I JUST HAD A WHITETAIL CRAWL ON ME YOU GUYS. Not cool. I thought it was just a bug or something, but it was a motherfucking whitetail spider D:D: I flicked it across the room. Now I'm going to have to find it. I'm not scared of spiders, but venomous spiders are not ok - especially whitetails (i've already got a hole in my leg, I don't want more missing parts of my body thanks). Right, on that note, I'm going spider hunting.
Also wtf is up with the new LJ layout?
I'm also still marking, so not particularily happy about that. Partly it's because I've been procrastinating, but also because those retarded students (the ones that colluded) are hopeless and yet, even after giving them a deadline I still have to give them more time *sigh*. I did enjoy a few days off from marking when uni finished last week, and played Uncharted and Uncharted 2 :D And Sunday we finished the main story for ACIII. Oh man, heavy ending for a Sunday afternoon ;_;
Lol I'm watching Australia's Beauty and the Geek - I've only seen two eps, so it's not like I follow it or anything, but we met Cody at EBX (he's a friend of a friend, who mod the Zelda website). Oh man, this sounds really awful but...he is so socially awkward. What you see on tv is pretty much him, from the couple of days we spent with him. He's a nice guy, just...awkward. Lol Matt and I were like, "alright, well...we're gonna go look around, so we'll see you at dinner." And we walk off a few metres and turn around to look at something and he's right behind us O_o. We also met a guy that was on a previous season of BatG and he was totally hilarious and cool. I can't remember his name, but god he cracked me up.
I've been really down about my weight. Since my leg op last year I've stacked it on. It's totally my own fault (that and bad genes), and I know I've been eating shit dinners and not exercising enough - especially now that I'm not playing soccer. I've never been as big as this, and I hate it. I've been trying to eat better, and haven't had chocolate or chips at all (chocolate is my vice omg). But I'm so self conscious and can't even stand to look at myself, or even let Matt see me. Not a day goes by that I don't think about it. I know I have to change my lifestyle if I want to lose weight, but idk, it's just not as easy as just eating healthy and going for a walk. I know I can lose weight, I've done it before, I just wish it wasn't so goddamn hard. I totally took being thin in highschool for granted.
I'm also really stressed about finances. It looked like the work I was meant to get over December was going to fall through, but my coordinator managed to convince her boss they needed help. I've got 2 days a week for the next 3 weeks. It's the the original 3 days a week, but at least it's something. I started really freaking out last week when it looked like I wasn't getting work; there is no way I was going to find work for a month, and not on such short notice. I've got overdue bills (including my car rego D:) and with Christmas coming up, yeah I'm stressed. I got a bit overwhelmed last week, with work, with this marking bs, finances, and the fact that I did a really shit job on my exam - the one that I should have aced. I feel like I'm not doing anything wth my life, and I doubt my abilities as a good teacher. I feel like I kinda failed because of the fact that I'm a teacher - you know the saying, "those who can, do; those who can't, teach". I know how important teachers are, but Idk, I'm just feeling sorry for myself.
OMG I JUST HAD A WHITETAIL CRAWL ON ME YOU GUYS. Not cool. I thought it was just a bug or something, but it was a motherfucking whitetail spider D:D: I flicked it across the room. Now I'm going to have to find it. I'm not scared of spiders, but venomous spiders are not ok - especially whitetails (i've already got a hole in my leg, I don't want more missing parts of my body thanks). Right, on that note, I'm going spider hunting.
Also wtf is up with the new LJ layout?