Hopeless is not a place I like to be
I can't sleep really well these days and I'm not sure why...
When I do sleep I have interesting dreams. Like the one about the guy from my speech class. *Shakes head* And I wish I'd never had it cause it makes things too confusing and makes me want to run into walls head first. Not that I'll do anything about it cause if pretty people dated the fat people...I'd have more of a chance. Soooo....yeah. that's how it's going. A guy holds your hand in a dream and then you, in the words of Kylie Minogue, can't get them out of your head. *Sighs* I hate it. I want it to all go away and never come back. That way I can go on with life and not have to worry about what I feel.
It's funny that I'm a hopeless romantic and I practically run from love cause...I don't know..I don't know what causes me to be so enamored with it and yet so scared of it. Maybe I'm just scared that my heart will be hurt and that I'll see love for something other than the thing with which I am so enamored. Stupid brain. Thinks too damn much about these things. I could say something but..I know I won't. I can't because of this overthinking things ordeal. I just wish it would either go away or I could just stop caring and say something. Maybe at the end of the semester. Just kind of...let it slip out a little..*Coughs* I don't know...maybe just say something about his eyes and then be all, "Umm...errrr...*Coughcough* I gotta go." *Run and hide for my life* That's how it would end up..
Oh well. Here's to insanity and love...may they forever rule the lives of random people everywhere!
When I do sleep I have interesting dreams. Like the one about the guy from my speech class. *Shakes head* And I wish I'd never had it cause it makes things too confusing and makes me want to run into walls head first. Not that I'll do anything about it cause if pretty people dated the fat people...I'd have more of a chance. Soooo....yeah. that's how it's going. A guy holds your hand in a dream and then you, in the words of Kylie Minogue, can't get them out of your head. *Sighs* I hate it. I want it to all go away and never come back. That way I can go on with life and not have to worry about what I feel.
It's funny that I'm a hopeless romantic and I practically run from love cause...I don't know..I don't know what causes me to be so enamored with it and yet so scared of it. Maybe I'm just scared that my heart will be hurt and that I'll see love for something other than the thing with which I am so enamored. Stupid brain. Thinks too damn much about these things. I could say something but..I know I won't. I can't because of this overthinking things ordeal. I just wish it would either go away or I could just stop caring and say something. Maybe at the end of the semester. Just kind of...let it slip out a little..*Coughs* I don't know...maybe just say something about his eyes and then be all, "Umm...errrr...*Coughcough* I gotta go." *Run and hide for my life* That's how it would end up..
Oh well. Here's to insanity and love...may they forever rule the lives of random people everywhere!