i have no confidence
I am so frustrated by all of these decisions I have to make. I'm scared. Scared to make the wrong decision. Scared to do what I want. The past two weeks have been an absolute nightmare, and I don't think I could have gotten through them, wihtout someone very amazing that's been with me through it all. And that is (drum roll, please) God. Holy cow, I don't think I would have made it wihtout Him being with me. He's provided me with supportive people, and that's all good, but he gave me a peace about it. If I hadn't known him, I would have never made it though the past two weeks. Lord knows where I'd be, and I'm serious.
Another thing I'm learning is confidence in God is nothing like confidence in man, especially nothing like self-confidence. This is so new to me and I'm so thankful to be a child of the Maker of the universe! What more could I ask for?
Romans 5:3-5 More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.
Psalm 60:11-12 Oh, grant us help against the foe, for vain is the salvation of man! With God we shall do valiantly; it is he who will tread down our foes.