So bored!
After being in Bend for a week and playing with Bryson and riding dirt bikes and quads...I have nothing to do!!! I keep on checking the clock wondering what time Darren is going to be home from work and what we're going to do when he does get home but I keep reminding myself that I'm not any where near him! Why has the attachment grown?! I didn't want to be this attached, the originial plan of attack was I'm going to break up with him and I end up liking him more than I did. I like somebody else damnit! I even let him put a Marine Corps sticker on my car...oh my god! He even talks in long-term frames of time...he said 3 years the other day! He said after 3 years I would still be holding the fact that he said something against him. WHOA!!!!!!!!! I mean I know this is the point in many people's lives they look for a significant other but he's really thinking about it I think...cripes.
If anybody wants to throw me a birthday party tomorrow feel free to since I don't get one. Or if somebody can manage to surprise me with Darren that'd be cool too...oh god listen to me! I'm liking another guy, I have to keep reminding myself of this...but then again this other guy doesn't really know I exist...ok so Darren it is. Look how easy I gave in.