It was just strange. I had been working towards that final 'make the changes, finish it and send it' thing for the last six weeks and finally got to the stage of 'you are sending it off TODAY!!! Or ELSE!!!'
I was vaguely assuming it was going to be an exciting moment, but there was actually dread. All that second and third and fourth guessing starts kicking in, again. You submit the first 50 pages (or 4 chapters in my case) and then, well, wait...
And then suddenly it is, Oh No! They don't get to meet this character till chapter 6! She is pivotial! And the best jokes were on page 56! They wont read them! And without the pay off in chapter nine, none of the stuff I set up in chapter 2 makes sense!!! ARRRRRR!!! They are going to hate it!!!!
The fact I was 100% happy with it all on Tuesday has nothing to do with it. Now I am paranoid :P
(actually today I am very relaxed about it, but Wednesday night and yesterday it felt very strange and like I had just made a massive error that was going to haunt my writing for decades.)
Got till the 30th to hear back. If I hear nothing then I start to cry :P
It was just strange. I had been working towards that final 'make the changes, finish it and send it' thing for the last six weeks and finally got to the stage of 'you are sending it off TODAY!!! Or ELSE!!!'
I was vaguely assuming it was going to be an exciting moment, but there was actually dread. All that second and third and fourth guessing starts kicking in, again. You submit the first 50 pages (or 4 chapters in my case) and then, well, wait...
And then suddenly it is, Oh No! They don't get to meet this character till chapter 6! She is pivotial! And the best jokes were on page 56! They wont read them! And without the pay off in chapter nine, none of the stuff I set up in chapter 2 makes sense!!! ARRRRRR!!! They are going to hate it!!!!
The fact I was 100% happy with it all on Tuesday has nothing to do with it. Now I am paranoid :P
(actually today I am very relaxed about it, but Wednesday night and yesterday it felt very strange and like I had just made a massive error that was going to haunt my writing for decades.)
Got till the 30th to hear back. If I hear nothing then I start to cry :P
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