Leather
I have always been interested in leather.
Two main things have always stood in my way of investigating it.
#1 the money, it's expensive and I can't afford it
#2 Is the more psychological side of it...
I have always seen myself as a boy and never a man.
I'm guessing it stems from having a bigger older brother that was always the man out of the two of us. He is taller, athletic and was always the one doing the manly things. I was quiet, passive, shy and physically smaller. I really think that has crept its way into my self image. Wearing leather to me is a very masculine thing to do. I've been scared to wear it, even a basic leather jacket because of its connotations, I thought I never lived up.
So I've decided to make an effort to get involved in the leather community here in any amount that I can. I have friends that are willing to let me borrow pieces and I want to go to the next leather night at the Black Eagle.
We'll see how it all goes. It's weird...I can go to naked nights there no problem, but the thought of a leather night fills me with stress and doubt like the second I enter the door I would be deemed an imposter.
Two main things have always stood in my way of investigating it.
#1 the money, it's expensive and I can't afford it
#2 Is the more psychological side of it...
I have always seen myself as a boy and never a man.
I'm guessing it stems from having a bigger older brother that was always the man out of the two of us. He is taller, athletic and was always the one doing the manly things. I was quiet, passive, shy and physically smaller. I really think that has crept its way into my self image. Wearing leather to me is a very masculine thing to do. I've been scared to wear it, even a basic leather jacket because of its connotations, I thought I never lived up.
So I've decided to make an effort to get involved in the leather community here in any amount that I can. I have friends that are willing to let me borrow pieces and I want to go to the next leather night at the Black Eagle.
We'll see how it all goes. It's weird...I can go to naked nights there no problem, but the thought of a leather night fills me with stress and doubt like the second I enter the door I would be deemed an imposter.