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dang it!..u know...i really can't stand it here yall...all ashley an justin do is laugh at me at every lil thing i do..like seriously...an it's gettin old! with them i'm juss SO weird an do everythin weird...(the way i eat cereal, the way i eat dinner, the way i eat hot fries, i make weird faces all the time, i like weird music (even though my lil bro dances to it at agape!!!!!!), juss everythin bout me is so diff then everyone else in this family. my dad is like the ONLY sane one in this household..seriously. my mom seems to take julian first ALL the time over everythin! an he treated her like CRAP! i really don't get it. i'm stuck with an 800 dollar putt-putt car that doesn't run, an julian had TWO cars that RAN GOOD when he was my age! one christmas eve he knocks down my parents door an runs away...an he gets a BRAND NEW comp in his fav. color! another christmas he completly disses our family for susan's an disrespects my parents, an he gets a cell phone! i really DON'T get it..an ashley...her an my mom are the reason y were so low on money! do yall know how much money we spent on JUST ashley this past year?? it's like in the teens in thousands!! and ashley is SO unappreciative an juss wants more an more an more. i don't get it! n she can't stand my mom..an my mom is the one that's like..oh yeah..lets do this for ashley! an ashley constantly talks back to my parents develops an attitude in a snap over the lilest thing..dang it bugs the mess outa me. i mean...i really do try to help my parents out around here. i volunteer to take ashley an justin where they need to go. i buy them food when i have money. i run my parents errands when they need me to, i pass my classes on my own (unlike everyone else!!)...n not once have i ever complained to them! all i'm askin is to get my car fixed b4 school starts and that's juss WAY too much to ask. it's like..the ppl in the house that have the WORST attitudes get the MOST in return. an i'm like last on the scale of ppl to worry bout in this house..but yeah..it's all fine an dandy! hopefully y.n. will cheer me up..that's y i love bein at church an stuff...or juss out of the house..is bc i feel so loved there...where as over here...i only feel loved when my dad's around...he's the ONLY one tryin to help me out with things....an he's the only one that gets y i hate bein home....but yeah..i've always been the diff one in this household an i'm sick of it. it drives me crazy an i can't take it n e more. it's really gettin old!! n e wayze..sorry bout the low entry...but..it's my lj...don't read it if ya don't want...<