All my romantic stories are a scrambled version of that first one.
This phenomenon of integration intrigues me.
I don’t really know how to explain it. What can I say, really? Except for the fact that my life seems to be playing with my head lately and I’m not sure whether it’s something that I enjoy or that drives me crazy. It’s inevitable, I suppose so there’s really nothing I can do but go along with it. I have some interesting people in my life at the moment and some people that I can’t seem to free from my mind so respectively, they’re included as well. I don’t know where to take my current situation or how to handle it properly. I kind of just want something extraordinarily rare to occur. But, don’t we all? I mean, people either crave the deliberation of being like everyone else or being that one person that doesn’t really fit into the schema but I find myself somewhere trapped in the middle vulnerable to either side not falling anywhere but where I choose to fall. So, does that make me powerful or incapable because I can never seem to stand up without eventually plunging to a certain place? I’m a floater in more ways than one and I can’t really see myself anywhere yet, instead I like to visit different streams of possibilities and see where they take me. Right now my boats spinning in this circle of misunderstanding and unsure curiosity that I’m dying to discover but can’t seem to get my boat moving. So, I’m stranded but I can’t really say that I don’t like where I am. It’s the power of acceptance that finally took a hold of me. I’m not going to be here forever, obviously, but while I am, I’m going to enjoy it. It seems that I can never truly escape from my past whether it is because of similar occurrences, run- throughs with certain people or being unable to let something’s go. It’s just like music. I can’t seem to accept anything too contemporary that can spoil the process that I have going, but at the same time I’m willing to listen. People know what they like and gradually indulge change. I want to take in everything I can at once and be shocked by the overwhelming states of what is yet to come. You see who’s worth keeping and who should have never left to begin with. Humble Pie.
Got a little poetic,
-Beth
I don’t really know how to explain it. What can I say, really? Except for the fact that my life seems to be playing with my head lately and I’m not sure whether it’s something that I enjoy or that drives me crazy. It’s inevitable, I suppose so there’s really nothing I can do but go along with it. I have some interesting people in my life at the moment and some people that I can’t seem to free from my mind so respectively, they’re included as well. I don’t know where to take my current situation or how to handle it properly. I kind of just want something extraordinarily rare to occur. But, don’t we all? I mean, people either crave the deliberation of being like everyone else or being that one person that doesn’t really fit into the schema but I find myself somewhere trapped in the middle vulnerable to either side not falling anywhere but where I choose to fall. So, does that make me powerful or incapable because I can never seem to stand up without eventually plunging to a certain place? I’m a floater in more ways than one and I can’t really see myself anywhere yet, instead I like to visit different streams of possibilities and see where they take me. Right now my boats spinning in this circle of misunderstanding and unsure curiosity that I’m dying to discover but can’t seem to get my boat moving. So, I’m stranded but I can’t really say that I don’t like where I am. It’s the power of acceptance that finally took a hold of me. I’m not going to be here forever, obviously, but while I am, I’m going to enjoy it. It seems that I can never truly escape from my past whether it is because of similar occurrences, run- throughs with certain people or being unable to let something’s go. It’s just like music. I can’t seem to accept anything too contemporary that can spoil the process that I have going, but at the same time I’m willing to listen. People know what they like and gradually indulge change. I want to take in everything I can at once and be shocked by the overwhelming states of what is yet to come. You see who’s worth keeping and who should have never left to begin with. Humble Pie.
Got a little poetic,
-Beth