Behind the Song [Care] Verse II
Verse I:
“I think I love someone now. . ."
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Creating Verse II
Back to his present state of lying lazily at his bed feeling a bit accomplished as he got himself the first stanza of his song. It was morning already around 7:00am and it was very unusual for him to be awake this early, heck he thought, he haven’t slept at all he was just blankly staring at his room focusing on nothing, every now and then looking at the bedside clock that his band mates gave him last Christmas it was sort of a joke for all of them as they know that Jin hates being run by the clock, he wants his life to be his not controlled by anyone or even bounded by time.
Remembering that time was a bit bittersweet for Jin as time quickly passed since that shoot somehow Jin and Kame forgets that episode of unanswered question of Kame for Jin and Jin wasn’t really sure since when he accepted to just be with Kame and never really confessing his feelings, Jin was just happy being with Kame being naturally enjoying Kame’s company but Jin knows that deep inside him what they have now can be more if he can just confess
He wanted to sleep but sleep eluded him completely he is now really thinking that his brain made an ally with his body to never let him sleep until he come up with good song
But damn, Jin thought he was partying up late last night and until way past 3:00am with his friends and all he had eaten was that crappy finger foods at the bar and a little bit of alcohol, ok he admitted a little way past his normal doze of alcohol and now his food starved stomach hurts as hell and was really making him more annoyed for not being able to sleep, normally he can forego hunger once he is sleeping but this time he wanted to satisfy his stomach first
Raising his self from his lazy lounging at his bed, barefoot and shirtless he went to his kitchen to see what he can salvage on his fridge, thinking of making a pancake but upon checking the content of his fridge there was just eggs and bits and pieces of veggies and a few bottle of beer, at times like this he just wished that he is back at his parents house because he knows for sure his okasan will always have ready foods available at their fridge and the only thing he will do is to pop them at their microwave then alas he can eat as freely as he can but that will also mean that he cannot go on with his late night’s~heck early morning partying as his okasan is just so opposed on his staying late, though it doesn’t mean that his okasan doesn’t like his friends because his mom just adore Yamapi and Yuu as she said that she would have liked it more to have a son more organized, dedicated and hard working as them. Though again those are just word play between Jin and his mom as his mom loves him so much and Jin in return loves his mom so much also.
That’s why Jin recalled when he turned 21 that was the only time Jin moved out of their house and lived on his own, he was thinking that he should have done that when he was 18 yrs old but he loves his mom and he cannot just leave her like that after all her hard work and love raising him and his brother.
And just like that, the 2nd verse of the song was formed for Jin.
Verse II:
“Ato nannen ka sureba omoide ni naru dakara
Wasure kaketeta kioku to ima wo futo kasanete mitanda”
“After a few years it will become a memory
So I tried to add the forgotten memories to this moment now”
[Flashback Verse II]
Jin just turned 21 and he asked his parents to allow him to live on his own, he know that he have already proven to his parents that he is capable of living on his own and as he is also earning on his own so Jin’s parents relents that this is the perfect time that they let their son further prove to them that he is really an adult by living on his own.
He thought he planned it all now he got the perfect apartment that he likes, it was overlooking the nearby park and it was really not in the city but in the outskirt of the city its like a boarder so transportation is accessible and can be easily located by his friends if they wanted to visit him there. The apartment is not that big but not too small also, just perfect for a bachelor like him.
He also arranged for the furniture’s that he wanted to be there in his apartment, he likes it minimal, not so much clutter so he can still maintain it as he doesn’t plan on spending so much time cleaning. It was basically white and black in décor and furniture’s so he can see which is dusty and what to clean as he logically battles with his parents when they visited him.
He hasn’t invited anyone yet at his place, he was just forced to let his parents come in as they threatened to call the police if he will not open up the door.
So he was there standing in the centre of his small living room and enjoying the peace of not having his brother play his games loudly or his mom beckoning him to help her with countless chores at their house or his dad watching the news on their tv. Ah, Jin loves the freedom of it all, he know that there will be times that it will be hard for him but he already braced himself for that as he thought that would make him more and more responsible.
Jin was thinking of inviting his friends tomorrow so he sent already emails to them to be as his place at 7pm as he has been dragging about it for a week now and he thought that a simple house warming is necessary as he learns that from his western friends that when one acquires a new place there should be a house warming for his place to be blessed with more blessings and he shares the same thought about that
“AHHHHHH” Jin just remembers that he prepared all the furnitures and house stuff but he forgot the most important thing in house warming, “I forgot to ask mom for grocery!” he runs off to the kitchen and look as his cupboards and cabinets, “Ah,, okasan only bought me cereals and milk, ahh what should I buy?” though Jin was a good planner for the party but he cannot decide on what to serve for the house warming, “Ah, what should I do?” looking at his fridge there was just bottles of water as he remembers that he asked his mom to leave it as is for Jin to do the filling up, bad move he thought now its becoming a hassle for him
Jin was seriously thinking of who to call so he can ask someone to help him on that errand it was just 4:00pm so there’s a lot of time to do some shopping, he thought of calling Pi, but he remembered that Pi was in a middle of tour with NewS so no luck there and Yuu was out of the town for magazine shoot and of course it will be too awkward to ask his mom to accompany him at the supermarket, he was thinking of Kame if he can accompany him but he cannot bring himself to call him… then he heard his phone ring…
Looking at his phone he was shocked that Kame was calling him, he instantly thought of the worst as this was such a shocked for Jin because it was not normal for Kame to call and at this time of the day normally this guy is either working or out in the gym, sweating. So with hurried voice and dreaded feeling he answered the phone
“Kame-chan, what happened? Where are you now, are you alright, do you want me to call your mom or should I got there to you, what hospital are you in…” Jin asked seriously and without pausing
“Jin, seriously are you drunk?” said Kame while laughing, “Could you get a grip on yourself, I’m fine!” continued Kame
“Baka, you never call at this time of the day, no, no, you never really call me without sending email first, so I was really shocked to see you are calling, I was actually thinking at what hospital you were probably in!” Jin said in a matter of fact and Jin cannot hide the fact that his heart was pounding hard at his chest and upon hearing that Kame is alright he thought that he held his breath far to long and he is now coming back to his normal breathing state
“I’m sorry Jin, I was runned over by my randomness and I thought of calling you so I called to surprise you and by the look of it, you were really surprised!” still Kame was laughing while saying that
“That is not funny Kazuya!” Jin only uses this once Kame pissed him off
And hearing the serious tone of Jin, Kame knew that his friend was really worried about him and that somehow makes Kame feel so so so happy that he cannot hide his dorky grin on his face while talking to a very silent Jin on the other line
“Akanishi Jin, I am very very sorry for this and I know I made you worried about me, can you please forgive me?” Kame said in a very low tone as if he was next to Jin’s ear and softly whispering the words to Jin
It was always hard for Jin to stay angry at Kame and Kame knew exactly how to beg forgiveness from Jin, he knows its dirty tactic but he doesn’t want Jin to be angry at him, never!
“Kame, I’ll forgive you but you have to do something for me,” Jin said while a mischievous smile is now displaying at his face
“Alright, anything just to be forgiven by you master!” Kame said he knows that Jin is doing this just so he can have an excuse to quickly forgive Kame
“Be my girlfriend now,,, and grocery for me” said Jin and just the thought of Kame being referred to as his girlfriend makes Jin widen his smile more and clutches his chest as if to hold his pounding heart steady
“HAI!” Kame said without hesitation, he was also surprised that being referred to as Jin’s girlfriend didn’t offend him at all, he was even surprised that he likes the idea of it, , , and that was odd he felt so natural about it
“Good girlfriend, so I will pick you up?” Jin said liking that word
They arrived at the supermarket and Jin did the pushing of the cart while Kame do all the picking of what is needed for Jin’s house warming and adding something extra for Jin’s fridge and stock as well. Other people seeing them can only smile at their directions as they were truly like a couple discussing everything whether it was healthy enough for Jin to eat to when was the product produced and the concern on the expiration date. They were even discussing on the dietary nutritional value of the product, and knowing that Kame was always at the gym Jin thought that Kame knew better so he just let the other boy choose whatever he saw fit for Jin to consume
Jin is loving this, a small distance away from him was his love, choosing all the best for him and acting really as his girlfriend, eyeing Kame now as he is bent on checking the items at the lower rack of the canned goods, Jin thought to himself that he wished there was a true genie that can grant his many wishes for he will wish for this day to never end, so he can be with his Kame for a bit longer. Jin saw Kame now looking at the top rack and trying to reach for one brand of canned good that Jin saw that the other boy was having a hard time getting as it was too high for Kame to reach
“Here you go” Jin said while practically standing directly at the back of Kame, talking to Kame’s ear and Jin knew that he was a little bit too closely pressed at Kame’s back, but he did not care he just acted purely on his instinct and right now his instinct is giving him another order and he was having second thoughts about that
“Baby, , , that was sweet of you” purred Kame and turning his face to Jin so he can add a sweet smile after he said that, Kame right now was thinking this should not be happening we are on a supermarket and people may see us and what would they think of it, but he cannot move, he doesn’t want to move, he love how he feels when Jin is practically hugging him, and what made him say those words are beyond Kame now, he just wanted to be kissed and that surprised him
“Baka! Jin don’t tell me you will kiss me now, , , “ Kame said hiding his own feelings and making a joke of it so Jin will not have a clue on how rattled he is knowing he wanted Jin to kiss him, “I think we are done here, we got everything we need, let’s pay them!” Kame moved away from Jin and pushed the now full cart, though it was a bit heavy Kame tried to push them as he wants his thoughts directed to other things
It took Jin a couple more minutes to move as he knows that his brain is in serious discussion with his heart to process what had happen there, did Kame just said those things, and what about that look that he gave to Jin, seriously Kame sometimes is such a hard mask to read
[End Flashback Verse II]
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Author's Note: this took me a little longer to post as i was side tracked other other things writting other fics XDDD lolz,, idk but i somehow lost some of my saz in writting this one,, probably cos i expected to have more from this,, ahhh disappoinments are really hard to take.. demo i hope that ill get more love than before.. ^^ *expecting* lolzzzz let me know what you think about this.. ^O^ <33333