[Fic] On & Off 2/3
Title: On & Off {2/3}
Author: muchie05
Pairing: AKAME
Genre: Romantic Comedy + Mystery + Pervee *let me have this genre* ^^p
Disclaimer: Purely fan fiction, owning them is never part of my reality… was it yours?
Summary: Their meeting was unexpected, he never really believes in love, he was one of the hottest DJ in town, women are all lining up for his attention, he never had a good relationship with any women and now tell me why he is drawn to this GUY? And this guy just lives for him and only HIM! So can he really find love, happiness, companionship with someone?
CHAPTER 1
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What prompted him to give Jin that name, Kazuya doesn’t know.
It just escaped his lips as if it jumped out from his mouth so the guy facing him will know that word and be called with that name.
As it was already past one in the morning, Jin decided to let the younger guy sleeps on his bed insisting that with the recent turnaround of unfortunate event he sleeps on it but the other guy argued that it was too much for Jin and insisted only to sleep on the sofa, but Jin insisted that Kazuya needed more comfort so his brain can relax and hopefully with a good nights’ rest he can remember more in the morning to help him remember who he is and as well as if Kazuya turned out to be a con artist then Jin can blocked him before going out of the house as there’s no way out from his bedroom, being his apartment located at the twentieth floor.
“Kazu-chan, are you done?” asked Jin
Jin gave the other guy another set of his pajama’s to make him more comfortable in sleeping, he knew that his apartment gets a little cold in the morning even with the massive blankets that he had there, coz honestly he like to snuggle butt naked under those blankets as he gets more comfortable like that but Kazuya needs to be comfortable, Jin thought.
“Yes” answered Kazuya
Opening the door, Jin found the guy standing at the foot of his queen sized bed with his pajama that just swallowed him whole as the top was too big for his small frame, he saw that Kazuya rolled it twice or thrice just so his hands can be seen at the end of the sleeves and the bottom of his pajama looks like another Kazuya can fit in it.
He looked like one of his girls wearing his clothes.
The lights of his room did not help at all, as at the soft glow of his pen lights give the room a very private and cozy and intimate feel about it. The red and black satin pajama seems to have blended very nicely to the dim lights of his room. And Kazuya’s whiteness makes a stark contrast on the fabric now enveloping his small frame and now that his guest has freshly washed his face and the ends of his hair a little damp from probably a quick shower or wash up makes him look really eatable.
Eatable!!!
Jin made a quick gulf of the non existing water on his mouth as he was thinking why the fuck his brain told him that the guy with no memory looked so eatable, and since when did he refer guys to be eatable he normally does that to his lady friends only and why is he giving too much attention on whatever this guy is doing.
Kazuya is fidgeting while waiting for what Jin thought about him using his pajama and even going to use this luxurious bed, and glancing at it he thought that about four or five people can sleep on it and still there would be enough room for tossing and turning and Kazuya felt really embarrassed that the owner of the house will be sleeping at the sofa just for his comfort.
“Anou Jin, you know the bed looks big enough for us to use…” Kazuya said
Big enough to use,,,,,, for what for eating him???
Jin with his wild and imaginative mind is now doing summersaults with crazy thoughts just hearing that from Kazuya
“I will be fine outside, in the living room, on the sofa” Jin interjects
“But I feel really bad that you will give up your comfort just for me…” Kazuya explained
Damn.
Jin feels that it will be even more comfortable for him to sleep in the couch than share his bed with this guy.
“This is no biggie, I would rather you sleep better and get comfortable so in the morning you can get back your memory and we can send you home” Jin said gruffly
The smallest flinch that Kazuya made did not escaped Jin’s attention as he seems to be a bit brutal on his honesty but he wanted to look gruff so he can mask this excitement that peeks out from his brain. He felt a little reproached but heck its way too early in the wee hours to be thinking of this guys’ feelings.
“Just go to sleep, here I brought you extra blankets just in case you need it, alright, nyt” with that Jin left his room closing it up without looking at the other guy
Crap. Crap. Crap.
Jin paddling his bare feet on his carpet approaching his leather sofa now doubts himself for ever buying that leather couch, he should have gone with his Mom’s suggestion of getting a more comfortable and bigger couch, but being the pig-headed that he is he wanted to look manly and now he thought what a manly-looking person he is right now trying to squeeze his long frame on that.
Armed with a pair of pillow and a blanket, he lay on the sofa with his feet dangling on the edge and just stares directly at the ceiling. His mind has lost all its desires to sleep, instead its now busy analyzing why he was so open and drawn to that guy probably sleeping soundly at his bedroom. He counted all the girls that he was in a relationship with before, although all of them ended in the most bizarre ways he was never the one being dumped, he does all the dumping.
He had used already for a thousand time that line of “it’s not you, it’s me” thingee and that line, “my parents are against our relationship” crappiness and even as far as saying “I will join the military soon” kind of things just to break up with his current fling.
He is a womanizer, grant that BUT he never take advantage with them. True that he slept with mostly half of his relationship but not all of them ends like that. He has a policy on himself that if the sparks and the chemistry died down he must move on and find another person to give him that momentary completeness that keeps him interested.
He believes that the earlier the relationship ended the less pain he and his partner will feel. He actually envies and long for the kind of relationship that his Mother and Father has even his younger sister on whom his mom told him is now in a relationship and is happy with how things are going is being envied by him, he wanted that as well for himself, but something in him just don’t want to belief that a happy-ever-after bullshit, he has heard a lot of heartaches and losses on the radio as confessed by his listeners to be even believing that crap called love.
His brain is busy processing this entire thing and if only it can produce a sound it would be like those of a choo-choo train!
Grrrrr aaaaa wwww llll !!!
That wasn’t even the sound of the train but his stomach as Jin remembers now that he did not have any dinner earlier and a piece of bread and energy drink is not proper nourishment for his body. Getting up, he thought of making at least a toast and scrambled eggs so his body will have its needed supply of energy. He was about to pass his bedroom, when a thought entered his mind, thinking about the guy in there if he too haven’t got any dinner. Deciding it was just proper to ask his guest out of politeness; Jin opened the door and almost felt scared at what he saw.
Sitting at the center of his queen sized bed, Kazuya was covered with all the blankets on his bed with just his small face visible from the layers of blankets surrounding him.
“Are you awake?” Jin asked out of shock
“Yes, I’m sorry did I woke you up?” said Kazuya through quivering voice
“Ah no, but have I woken you up?” its Jin’s turn to ask
“No-no, I was just trying to think hard who I am, how I ended up on the train, where I live…” Kazuya informed and in between words trying to suppress the quacking of his voice
“I think that is best done when you have a good sleep and have you eaten anything before passing out, can you remember that?” Jin said
“I am not sure, but I do feel a little hungry, sorry” Kazuya softly whispered
“No need to say sorry, okay, I feel hungry as well so come out from your blankets and join me in the kitchen” Jin said as softly as he can as he now observes that anything above the softest voice the other guy flinches on it
Jin just reached his kitchen took a peak at the guy following him and he saw the cutest thing any guy could ever do, Jin saw Kazuya walking trying to pull up his falling bottom pajama and at the same time trying to keep the top fixed on his small shoulders as it keeps on dipping low on his smooth shoulder.
Cutest thing a guy could do.
The hunger must be more than what it seems as Jin is really now thinking weird things
“Jin can I help you?” Kazuya offered upon arriving at the kitchen
“Are you good in cooking?”
“I am not sure, but if you tell me what to do then I’ll try my best to do that”
“Oryt, what do you fancy eating?”
“Anything you feel like eating will be same for me” Kame said
I want to eat you.
Jin was almost on the verge of putting sounds on those words when he caught himself and just loudly snorted to cover up for his weird thoughts
He took out eggs from the refrigerator and just thinking of putting them in the pan and just fries them. But Kazuya went as well in the fridge and took out cheese, bacons, tomatoes and some potatoes and thought of adding those to the eggs to make them more delicious and offered to cook the food himself. Though it may sound odd to Jin that Kazuya will cook he just let the other guy do that as if something told him to let the guy do that for him.
Kazuya proved to be adept in the kitchen; he mixed everything and made a cheese bacon omelet that Jin approves. He then made separate hash browns from the potatoes that he got from the fridge, and just like any skilled master chef, Kazuya moved in the most graceful way any person in the kitchen can conjure.
Jin was mesmerized.
He noticed everything the other guy does, from the way he cuts using the knife, to how he handles the washing of the utensils he used and to the way the guy moves from the sink to where the frying pan is located. Even the moments when his top falls a little down to his expose his smooth shoulder and how he cutely tries to remedy that with a small shakes on his shoulders that then makes his pants dip lower.
Ohh how mesmerized Jin was watching Kazuya while both of his hands are cupping his face.
WHAT THE HELL!!!
Since when did he acted so love-struck, doing all those cutesy things that he only watched in the TV and or heard off from all his listeners.
Kazuya finished cooking all the food and Jin took out the juice that he has in the fridge as thinking if he drinks his normal coffee now, there won’t be a chance of sleeping for him and he needs to sleep, he is never a morning person, he is a grouch in the morning.
Anyone who will be seeing them now at this time, would really think that they had been doing this for a long time, the mood in the kitchen is so comfortable, no awkwardness for both of them working the setting up of the table in perfect synch. Kazuya was putting the food in their respective plates and Jin was setting up the table carrying the utensils, glasses and plates. Jin was already seated anticipating eating the delicious food that Kazuya cooked for them, even with just the smell from it makes his mouth waters. Kazuya was just about to sit as well, when he got up and poured Jin’s glass with orange juice before doing that to his own glass.
Jin’s heart made a summersault.
He had seen this exact same thing with his Mom for his Dad every time they will have meal together in their house. And when Jin asked his mom about it, the answer given to him was very simple and very honest;
“I love your Dad so much that I always put him first in my life in whatever I do, and this is the first step of showing it to him”
Does Kazuya follow this reasoning as well, Jin asked himself. Though the guy cannot remember anything from his past, but Jin read somewhere before that people with amnesia cannot remember facts about their lives but not their way of living, their beliefs, their personalities and characters. Somehow it will eventually shows and manifest itself without them knowing it, just like how you know you can tie your shoelaces or walk though you forgot how you have learned those things.
“This is delicious Kazuya, where did you learn to cook?” Jin said while happily munching on the hash browns
“I am not sure where but I just feel like I know how to cook this” Kame said smiling directly at Jin
“Oh stupid me, sorry for asking that, it’s just too delicious, I might be used to this” Jin stated and just happily smile back to the other guy
And again, anyone seeing them now, will really think that they have been doing this for a long time and they are also been in a good relationship that this feeling of comfort is from the long years of being together. They ate, laugh, tease mainly by Jin to Kazuya and finish the food in no time, and just like how they are in perfect synchronization in cooking and setting up the table, the same thing when they are cleaning up. Jin took up the washing of the wares and Kazuya dries them up and put back in the dish tray, and from time to time Jin glances at the boy on his right side with the top of his head just at his eye level he can see closely that he has a very smooth and white skin, just like a strong pinch on his cheeks will put a mark on it, making it red.
AKA = red, should he put his marks on his cheeks, or probably on his lips?
There he goes again, Jin thought, whenever Kazuya is concern he cannot keep but being the perv that he is when women are concern. Women!
And not some random, amnesiac, superb cook, cute and eatable guy.
When the cleaning up was done, it was almost 3 in the morning and Jin really needs to sleep. Even though his work starts in the evening he still wanted to take care of his body and give it its due number of hours of sleep. He said another thank you to Kazuya for the food and just walked the guy to his room and waited till the door closes only then he walked to where his bed for the night will be, his couch.
He was not anticipating it.
The remaining hours will be hard but he will endure all of it for the sake of his love for sleeping.
Minutes slowly pass by and his eyes are starting to close and his mind starting to go into dreamland when he hears soft crying sounds that robbed him of his almost achievable sleep.
Jin sat up and tried really hard to listen if the sound was just imaginary or something scary or just his sleep deprived brain conjuring weird sounds.
And there it was again.
Standing up, he tried to follow the sound of those soft whimpers and cries and his feet took him at the door of his bedroom.
Holding his breath while opening the door slowly as he doesn’t want to wake up Kazu just in case it was not the guy whose doing those sounds. Jin found Kazu at the very corner of the bed cuddle in fetus style and he seems to be sleeping but the continuous sound coming from him pains Jin while hearing it.
Slowly Jin approached the bed and from the soft night light that the room has, Jin saw the streams of tears from the younger guys eyes down to his cheeks and hid at his head.
The need to hug and sooth the guy of his bad dreams is too overwhelming.
Acting on his instinct, Jin kneels down to where Kazu was sleeping and lightly waking the guy from his bad dreams.
“Kazu, open your eyes” softly Jin said
“Baby, you are having some bad dreams, open your eyes please wake up” ever so softly Jin whispers to Kazu’s ears
And just like in any movie that Jin watched with his sister, Kazu opened his eyes slowly and without any sound, hugged Jin and judging from the shoulder shakes and heaving chest the younger guy is continuing his crying.
“Hush, baby it’s alright I am here..” Jin said while sitting at the bed and making the younger guy sit as well
“I don’t know who am I, I cannot remember Jin..” stated Kazu in between sobs
“Forget about that now, we will know soon, just try to get some rest for now” said Jin while running his hand at the back of Kazu trying to comfort him mimicking what his Mom usually does to him when he was young
“In my dreams, I can see white walls, I can recall hearing voices but no faces, I cannot see them Jin and I am afraid of what will happen to me..” Kazu heart wrenchingly said to Jin
Tightening his hug even more, Jin’s heart was tearing up hearing it from Kazu. He doesn’t have any clue on how hard it was losing your memory but hearing the younger boy telling about it and seeing how it affects him, Jin decided that he will not just let Kazu go without finding who he really is.
“Kazu, we will do everything for you to remember, I promise you that” Jin sincerely promised
“Thank you Jin, sorry for being such a bother to you” Kazu said and buried his face at Jin’s neck
This feels totally alright with Jin
It is not grossing him out or has at least a little bit making him uncomfortable, he feels normal.
“Are you ok now Kazu” Jin said trying to look at Kazu
“Yes, I think.” Kazu said reluctantly letting go
“Ok so go back to sleep and try to use all those blankets again, you feel a little cold” Jin said on the process of standing up
“Thank you Jin” Kazu said and gave a little shiver as the warmth that he got from Jin’s body is no longer there replaced by the cold air from the air condition unit
Glancing at the control of the air conditioning unit, Jin noticed that it was already set into the lowest temperature but he can still see that Kazu gets affected by the cold air.
Jin stood up and looked at the younger guy with his head bowed down now shivering from the cold air, making up his mind, Jin decided to walk out of the room and grabbed all his pillows and blankets and return to the room and declaring to Kazu that he will be sleeping in the bed as well, he reasoned that he will only do that because the younger guy might die out in his room due to coldness so at least he will be there to save him.
“Kazu, I hope you don’t mind me sleeping here?” asked Jin positioning all his pillows at the far left side of the bed as the other guy has set up his pillows at the center of the bed
Instantaneously, the face of the younger guy visibly brightens and moving quickly like a cat without any objection, settled his now shivering body in the center of the bed and bury his body under the covers.
Jin lay down at his bed, thankful that he is now at his bed but so unaccustomed to be sleeping near the edge of his bed so he leaned on his left side with his back against that cocoon in the middle of the bed so he will not fall off during his sleep and just when he was about to close his eyes, he thought that a small earthquake tremor is happening as his bed is slightly shaking, standing up, he felt no shaking but when he sat down on the bed the shaking is back again.
He only thought of one reason why.
There in the middle of his bed, with the aid of his bed lamp, he can clearly see that the younger guy is shivering under his blanket.
Jin took an extra blanket from his cabinet to cover the shivering guy in the bed and he waited for a few minutes if the shivering will stop and seeing that covering him did nothing, Jin raked his mind on what else to do, it was already way way passed his bed time and he needs to sleep or else he will not be in a good mood in the morning so Jin decided to do just what his mom use to do when he got chills when he was a small boy…
He spoon-cuddle-hug Kazu to share his body heat!
Jin tried to reason with himself that the only reason why he is doing this is because he wanted to sleep and if it means that cuddling the younger guy to give his body heat then he will do it, period.
Underneath the blankets where they are now, Jin normally sleeps in the nude so he won’t get too hot but now buried under layers of covers with his sleeping gears on, he felt hotter than usual, but this creature that he is now hugging to share his body heat keeps on edging closer and closer to him as if trying to be inside Jin or a part of his body.
As soon as Jin hugged Kazu, the guy stopped from shivering and to Jin’s amazement was actually murmuring sounds of blissfulness, an occasional purring like that of a cat comes out from the younger guy and even a slight laughter comes out from him.
Jin cannot deny that he feels something and though sleepiness drags his mind away, he knows that he is enjoying this, the soapy scent that Kazu’s hair drifting on his nostrils, the softness of Kazu’s body now pressed directly in front of him, with his soft bottom solidly locked at the junctions of his thighs and that smooth shoulder blade that is bare just in front of his mouth.
Sleepiness and Kazu don’t mix together, as he lowers his mouth just to see if what his mind is telling him is correct, he placed his warm lips at the left tip of Kazu’s shoulder blade, his skin was so cold but it felt so right for Jin. Kazu flinched a little and Jin was almost worried when the younger guy just shifted position now facing him, and burying his face under Jin’s.
Jin was about to let go of hugging Kazu, when the younger guy tighten his hold on to him and even letting his right leg straddles Jin, and on the process of doing so, his big pajama topper hiked up a little exposing his bare midriff and without realizing it, Jin placed his hands there and started rubbing away the coldness of Kazu’s body.
Jin cannot remember falling asleep just some images playing on his dreams.
Someone’s soft body was half on top of him
Someone’s gentle hand was on his face
Someone’s soft-soapy-scent drifts off to his nostrils
Someone’s slender cold midriff has his hands on it
Someone’s soft bottom is now pressed at his early morning hard-on
Someone’s bare chest is now being massage by his hand
And when he finally opened his eyes because his alarm clock is now angrily telling him it’s already 9:00am those vivid images where actually not part of his dream but his reality as he finds himself topping Kazu, who was laying face down with him literally pinning the younger guy down, with half of his top pajama off and his bottom pajama dangerously hanging low on his pelvis, showing his pelvis indentation and upper cheeks of his bottom and Jin cannot even remember when was the time he removed his shirt.
Kazu looked gorgeous.
With his hair tussled out, his mouth slightly parted probably due to difficulty in breathing coz Jin was pinning him down and most surprisingly Jin thought that the guy look so lavishly-make-love at.
Slowly lifting his body up, and seeing Kazu instinctively move towards him made his heart skip a beat as if the body of the younger guy knew that he is being separated to his beloved. Jin turns off the annoying alarm clock as he doesn’t want to wake up the younger guy who was just early this morning having so much personal battle so he can recover and probably brings any good news for them.
He liked this scenario. He liked the peacefulness that this image gives him.
Jin looking closely again at Kazu sleeping at his bed in his pajama makes him wants to protect and keep the guy.
Impossible.
Shaking his head, he cannot decide when was it that his heart decided to do just that. He knows that his parents will understand him, he don’t care what societies norms tells him about this kind of relationship, he just wanted this happiness to be his, this is what he was looking for.
For a bad morning person, this morning was very different for Jin. He has a different feel in him waking up, he normally is a grouch when he got little sleep and woke up early but this morning he feels refreshed.
Standing up and not thinking to put back on his discarded shirt, he headed straight to his morning rituals leaving a very peaceful and soundly sleeping Kazu on his bed.
He was in a good mood, his feet feels so light that he is actually thinking that one strong wind he might fly with happiness. He was humming soft tunes, happy tunes and he has this goofy look on his face plastered with an equally goofy wide smile that he just cannot get rid of.
He thought that now that he is in a good mood, might as well continue it with a happy morning meal. He might not be a genius in the kitchen but he sure is an enthusiastic learner so he has a few choice meals that he can whip up to impress a special person. So draping his towel on his shoulders he headed out to his kitchen when he almost got a heart attack when he saw a figure standing next to his kitchen counter wearing a sarong-type white dress.
“Good morning Jin” brightly greeted by Kazu who has discarded the pajama top of Jin and replaced it with one of his bed covers and make shifted it as a sarong tube type of dress exposing now his two beautiful shoulder blades that was once been touched by Jin’s lips
“Oh good morning, are you feeling well?” Jin asked trying to hide the fact that he is now directly looking at the exposed skin of the other guy and is recalling how he has placed his mouth on those and enjoyed the half of it wishing he can do the other half now
“Oh! Yes thank you” still brightly quipped by Kazu who is now on the verge of putting all the cutted pieces of vegetables and meat on the frying pan to be cooked, and that was the only time that Jin noticed that the younger guy has already one meal prepared for them and is just waiting for the other to be finished.
Jin seeing that no cooking will be prepared by him, he just goes out to set the table and he just like this again for the nth time, he like this comfortable setting. From time to time he was sneaking a few glances over to the guy cooking and he felt like so naughty thinking that he did something wrong last night that he knew that for sure he had some blushes covering his cheeks.
Jin was unaware of someone sneaking a peak of him as well, from time to time Kazu glances over to that guy that sitting on the table with his bare upper part fully exposed to him that he enjoys looking like it was the most natural thing for him to do. But what caught Kazu’s attention was that, whenever Jin speaks his heart beats faster than normal as if his voice adds more pump into it. He doesn’t know why he feels more alive when he is with Jin, just that he knows that Jin is familiar to him, whether because he has a good voice or a very appealing face or even because Jin has showed him so much kindness he doesn’t know, he is just happy to know that he is with the older guy and that is it for him.
He is at peace and he is happy.
“It’s ready!” Kazu announced beaming looking directly at the older guy sitting on the other side of the table brightly smiling back at him
“Itadakimasu” Jin said returning the happiness that he got from the younger guy
But how long will this happiness be...
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So how was it FLIST? :D
One more chapter to go and this is done hahaha, turtle slow pace but still better than nothing right hahaha :D
Give love and encouragement to this oba-chan ne~ ^^
Hugs,
.muchie
On the side note, anyone here who is into U-KISS #JaeVin shipper lolz *they kinda resemble the love of akame* find me here ukiss_paradise@livejournal :Dv #shamelesspromotion lolz ;P
Author: muchie05
Pairing: AKAME
Genre: Romantic Comedy + Mystery + Pervee *let me have this genre* ^^p
Disclaimer: Purely fan fiction, owning them is never part of my reality… was it yours?
Summary: Their meeting was unexpected, he never really believes in love, he was one of the hottest DJ in town, women are all lining up for his attention, he never had a good relationship with any women and now tell me why he is drawn to this GUY? And this guy just lives for him and only HIM! So can he really find love, happiness, companionship with someone?
CHAPTER 1
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What prompted him to give Jin that name, Kazuya doesn’t know.
It just escaped his lips as if it jumped out from his mouth so the guy facing him will know that word and be called with that name.
As it was already past one in the morning, Jin decided to let the younger guy sleeps on his bed insisting that with the recent turnaround of unfortunate event he sleeps on it but the other guy argued that it was too much for Jin and insisted only to sleep on the sofa, but Jin insisted that Kazuya needed more comfort so his brain can relax and hopefully with a good nights’ rest he can remember more in the morning to help him remember who he is and as well as if Kazuya turned out to be a con artist then Jin can blocked him before going out of the house as there’s no way out from his bedroom, being his apartment located at the twentieth floor.
“Kazu-chan, are you done?” asked Jin
Jin gave the other guy another set of his pajama’s to make him more comfortable in sleeping, he knew that his apartment gets a little cold in the morning even with the massive blankets that he had there, coz honestly he like to snuggle butt naked under those blankets as he gets more comfortable like that but Kazuya needs to be comfortable, Jin thought.
“Yes” answered Kazuya
Opening the door, Jin found the guy standing at the foot of his queen sized bed with his pajama that just swallowed him whole as the top was too big for his small frame, he saw that Kazuya rolled it twice or thrice just so his hands can be seen at the end of the sleeves and the bottom of his pajama looks like another Kazuya can fit in it.
He looked like one of his girls wearing his clothes.
The lights of his room did not help at all, as at the soft glow of his pen lights give the room a very private and cozy and intimate feel about it. The red and black satin pajama seems to have blended very nicely to the dim lights of his room. And Kazuya’s whiteness makes a stark contrast on the fabric now enveloping his small frame and now that his guest has freshly washed his face and the ends of his hair a little damp from probably a quick shower or wash up makes him look really eatable.
Eatable!!!
Jin made a quick gulf of the non existing water on his mouth as he was thinking why the fuck his brain told him that the guy with no memory looked so eatable, and since when did he refer guys to be eatable he normally does that to his lady friends only and why is he giving too much attention on whatever this guy is doing.
Kazuya is fidgeting while waiting for what Jin thought about him using his pajama and even going to use this luxurious bed, and glancing at it he thought that about four or five people can sleep on it and still there would be enough room for tossing and turning and Kazuya felt really embarrassed that the owner of the house will be sleeping at the sofa just for his comfort.
“Anou Jin, you know the bed looks big enough for us to use…” Kazuya said
Big enough to use,,,,,, for what for eating him???
Jin with his wild and imaginative mind is now doing summersaults with crazy thoughts just hearing that from Kazuya
“I will be fine outside, in the living room, on the sofa” Jin interjects
“But I feel really bad that you will give up your comfort just for me…” Kazuya explained
Damn.
Jin feels that it will be even more comfortable for him to sleep in the couch than share his bed with this guy.
“This is no biggie, I would rather you sleep better and get comfortable so in the morning you can get back your memory and we can send you home” Jin said gruffly
The smallest flinch that Kazuya made did not escaped Jin’s attention as he seems to be a bit brutal on his honesty but he wanted to look gruff so he can mask this excitement that peeks out from his brain. He felt a little reproached but heck its way too early in the wee hours to be thinking of this guys’ feelings.
“Just go to sleep, here I brought you extra blankets just in case you need it, alright, nyt” with that Jin left his room closing it up without looking at the other guy
Crap. Crap. Crap.
Jin paddling his bare feet on his carpet approaching his leather sofa now doubts himself for ever buying that leather couch, he should have gone with his Mom’s suggestion of getting a more comfortable and bigger couch, but being the pig-headed that he is he wanted to look manly and now he thought what a manly-looking person he is right now trying to squeeze his long frame on that.
Armed with a pair of pillow and a blanket, he lay on the sofa with his feet dangling on the edge and just stares directly at the ceiling. His mind has lost all its desires to sleep, instead its now busy analyzing why he was so open and drawn to that guy probably sleeping soundly at his bedroom. He counted all the girls that he was in a relationship with before, although all of them ended in the most bizarre ways he was never the one being dumped, he does all the dumping.
He had used already for a thousand time that line of “it’s not you, it’s me” thingee and that line, “my parents are against our relationship” crappiness and even as far as saying “I will join the military soon” kind of things just to break up with his current fling.
He is a womanizer, grant that BUT he never take advantage with them. True that he slept with mostly half of his relationship but not all of them ends like that. He has a policy on himself that if the sparks and the chemistry died down he must move on and find another person to give him that momentary completeness that keeps him interested.
He believes that the earlier the relationship ended the less pain he and his partner will feel. He actually envies and long for the kind of relationship that his Mother and Father has even his younger sister on whom his mom told him is now in a relationship and is happy with how things are going is being envied by him, he wanted that as well for himself, but something in him just don’t want to belief that a happy-ever-after bullshit, he has heard a lot of heartaches and losses on the radio as confessed by his listeners to be even believing that crap called love.
His brain is busy processing this entire thing and if only it can produce a sound it would be like those of a choo-choo train!
Grrrrr aaaaa wwww llll !!!
That wasn’t even the sound of the train but his stomach as Jin remembers now that he did not have any dinner earlier and a piece of bread and energy drink is not proper nourishment for his body. Getting up, he thought of making at least a toast and scrambled eggs so his body will have its needed supply of energy. He was about to pass his bedroom, when a thought entered his mind, thinking about the guy in there if he too haven’t got any dinner. Deciding it was just proper to ask his guest out of politeness; Jin opened the door and almost felt scared at what he saw.
Sitting at the center of his queen sized bed, Kazuya was covered with all the blankets on his bed with just his small face visible from the layers of blankets surrounding him.
“Are you awake?” Jin asked out of shock
“Yes, I’m sorry did I woke you up?” said Kazuya through quivering voice
“Ah no, but have I woken you up?” its Jin’s turn to ask
“No-no, I was just trying to think hard who I am, how I ended up on the train, where I live…” Kazuya informed and in between words trying to suppress the quacking of his voice
“I think that is best done when you have a good sleep and have you eaten anything before passing out, can you remember that?” Jin said
“I am not sure, but I do feel a little hungry, sorry” Kazuya softly whispered
“No need to say sorry, okay, I feel hungry as well so come out from your blankets and join me in the kitchen” Jin said as softly as he can as he now observes that anything above the softest voice the other guy flinches on it
Jin just reached his kitchen took a peak at the guy following him and he saw the cutest thing any guy could ever do, Jin saw Kazuya walking trying to pull up his falling bottom pajama and at the same time trying to keep the top fixed on his small shoulders as it keeps on dipping low on his smooth shoulder.
Cutest thing a guy could do.
The hunger must be more than what it seems as Jin is really now thinking weird things
“Jin can I help you?” Kazuya offered upon arriving at the kitchen
“Are you good in cooking?”
“I am not sure, but if you tell me what to do then I’ll try my best to do that”
“Oryt, what do you fancy eating?”
“Anything you feel like eating will be same for me” Kame said
I want to eat you.
Jin was almost on the verge of putting sounds on those words when he caught himself and just loudly snorted to cover up for his weird thoughts
He took out eggs from the refrigerator and just thinking of putting them in the pan and just fries them. But Kazuya went as well in the fridge and took out cheese, bacons, tomatoes and some potatoes and thought of adding those to the eggs to make them more delicious and offered to cook the food himself. Though it may sound odd to Jin that Kazuya will cook he just let the other guy do that as if something told him to let the guy do that for him.
Kazuya proved to be adept in the kitchen; he mixed everything and made a cheese bacon omelet that Jin approves. He then made separate hash browns from the potatoes that he got from the fridge, and just like any skilled master chef, Kazuya moved in the most graceful way any person in the kitchen can conjure.
Jin was mesmerized.
He noticed everything the other guy does, from the way he cuts using the knife, to how he handles the washing of the utensils he used and to the way the guy moves from the sink to where the frying pan is located. Even the moments when his top falls a little down to his expose his smooth shoulder and how he cutely tries to remedy that with a small shakes on his shoulders that then makes his pants dip lower.
Ohh how mesmerized Jin was watching Kazuya while both of his hands are cupping his face.
WHAT THE HELL!!!
Since when did he acted so love-struck, doing all those cutesy things that he only watched in the TV and or heard off from all his listeners.
Kazuya finished cooking all the food and Jin took out the juice that he has in the fridge as thinking if he drinks his normal coffee now, there won’t be a chance of sleeping for him and he needs to sleep, he is never a morning person, he is a grouch in the morning.
Anyone who will be seeing them now at this time, would really think that they had been doing this for a long time, the mood in the kitchen is so comfortable, no awkwardness for both of them working the setting up of the table in perfect synch. Kazuya was putting the food in their respective plates and Jin was setting up the table carrying the utensils, glasses and plates. Jin was already seated anticipating eating the delicious food that Kazuya cooked for them, even with just the smell from it makes his mouth waters. Kazuya was just about to sit as well, when he got up and poured Jin’s glass with orange juice before doing that to his own glass.
Jin’s heart made a summersault.
He had seen this exact same thing with his Mom for his Dad every time they will have meal together in their house. And when Jin asked his mom about it, the answer given to him was very simple and very honest;
“I love your Dad so much that I always put him first in my life in whatever I do, and this is the first step of showing it to him”
Does Kazuya follow this reasoning as well, Jin asked himself. Though the guy cannot remember anything from his past, but Jin read somewhere before that people with amnesia cannot remember facts about their lives but not their way of living, their beliefs, their personalities and characters. Somehow it will eventually shows and manifest itself without them knowing it, just like how you know you can tie your shoelaces or walk though you forgot how you have learned those things.
“This is delicious Kazuya, where did you learn to cook?” Jin said while happily munching on the hash browns
“I am not sure where but I just feel like I know how to cook this” Kame said smiling directly at Jin
“Oh stupid me, sorry for asking that, it’s just too delicious, I might be used to this” Jin stated and just happily smile back to the other guy
And again, anyone seeing them now, will really think that they have been doing this for a long time and they are also been in a good relationship that this feeling of comfort is from the long years of being together. They ate, laugh, tease mainly by Jin to Kazuya and finish the food in no time, and just like how they are in perfect synchronization in cooking and setting up the table, the same thing when they are cleaning up. Jin took up the washing of the wares and Kazuya dries them up and put back in the dish tray, and from time to time Jin glances at the boy on his right side with the top of his head just at his eye level he can see closely that he has a very smooth and white skin, just like a strong pinch on his cheeks will put a mark on it, making it red.
AKA = red, should he put his marks on his cheeks, or probably on his lips?
There he goes again, Jin thought, whenever Kazuya is concern he cannot keep but being the perv that he is when women are concern. Women!
And not some random, amnesiac, superb cook, cute and eatable guy.
When the cleaning up was done, it was almost 3 in the morning and Jin really needs to sleep. Even though his work starts in the evening he still wanted to take care of his body and give it its due number of hours of sleep. He said another thank you to Kazuya for the food and just walked the guy to his room and waited till the door closes only then he walked to where his bed for the night will be, his couch.
He was not anticipating it.
The remaining hours will be hard but he will endure all of it for the sake of his love for sleeping.
Minutes slowly pass by and his eyes are starting to close and his mind starting to go into dreamland when he hears soft crying sounds that robbed him of his almost achievable sleep.
Jin sat up and tried really hard to listen if the sound was just imaginary or something scary or just his sleep deprived brain conjuring weird sounds.
And there it was again.
Standing up, he tried to follow the sound of those soft whimpers and cries and his feet took him at the door of his bedroom.
Holding his breath while opening the door slowly as he doesn’t want to wake up Kazu just in case it was not the guy whose doing those sounds. Jin found Kazu at the very corner of the bed cuddle in fetus style and he seems to be sleeping but the continuous sound coming from him pains Jin while hearing it.
Slowly Jin approached the bed and from the soft night light that the room has, Jin saw the streams of tears from the younger guys eyes down to his cheeks and hid at his head.
The need to hug and sooth the guy of his bad dreams is too overwhelming.
Acting on his instinct, Jin kneels down to where Kazu was sleeping and lightly waking the guy from his bad dreams.
“Kazu, open your eyes” softly Jin said
“Baby, you are having some bad dreams, open your eyes please wake up” ever so softly Jin whispers to Kazu’s ears
And just like in any movie that Jin watched with his sister, Kazu opened his eyes slowly and without any sound, hugged Jin and judging from the shoulder shakes and heaving chest the younger guy is continuing his crying.
“Hush, baby it’s alright I am here..” Jin said while sitting at the bed and making the younger guy sit as well
“I don’t know who am I, I cannot remember Jin..” stated Kazu in between sobs
“Forget about that now, we will know soon, just try to get some rest for now” said Jin while running his hand at the back of Kazu trying to comfort him mimicking what his Mom usually does to him when he was young
“In my dreams, I can see white walls, I can recall hearing voices but no faces, I cannot see them Jin and I am afraid of what will happen to me..” Kazu heart wrenchingly said to Jin
Tightening his hug even more, Jin’s heart was tearing up hearing it from Kazu. He doesn’t have any clue on how hard it was losing your memory but hearing the younger boy telling about it and seeing how it affects him, Jin decided that he will not just let Kazu go without finding who he really is.
“Kazu, we will do everything for you to remember, I promise you that” Jin sincerely promised
“Thank you Jin, sorry for being such a bother to you” Kazu said and buried his face at Jin’s neck
This feels totally alright with Jin
It is not grossing him out or has at least a little bit making him uncomfortable, he feels normal.
“Are you ok now Kazu” Jin said trying to look at Kazu
“Yes, I think.” Kazu said reluctantly letting go
“Ok so go back to sleep and try to use all those blankets again, you feel a little cold” Jin said on the process of standing up
“Thank you Jin” Kazu said and gave a little shiver as the warmth that he got from Jin’s body is no longer there replaced by the cold air from the air condition unit
Glancing at the control of the air conditioning unit, Jin noticed that it was already set into the lowest temperature but he can still see that Kazu gets affected by the cold air.
Jin stood up and looked at the younger guy with his head bowed down now shivering from the cold air, making up his mind, Jin decided to walk out of the room and grabbed all his pillows and blankets and return to the room and declaring to Kazu that he will be sleeping in the bed as well, he reasoned that he will only do that because the younger guy might die out in his room due to coldness so at least he will be there to save him.
“Kazu, I hope you don’t mind me sleeping here?” asked Jin positioning all his pillows at the far left side of the bed as the other guy has set up his pillows at the center of the bed
Instantaneously, the face of the younger guy visibly brightens and moving quickly like a cat without any objection, settled his now shivering body in the center of the bed and bury his body under the covers.
Jin lay down at his bed, thankful that he is now at his bed but so unaccustomed to be sleeping near the edge of his bed so he leaned on his left side with his back against that cocoon in the middle of the bed so he will not fall off during his sleep and just when he was about to close his eyes, he thought that a small earthquake tremor is happening as his bed is slightly shaking, standing up, he felt no shaking but when he sat down on the bed the shaking is back again.
He only thought of one reason why.
There in the middle of his bed, with the aid of his bed lamp, he can clearly see that the younger guy is shivering under his blanket.
Jin took an extra blanket from his cabinet to cover the shivering guy in the bed and he waited for a few minutes if the shivering will stop and seeing that covering him did nothing, Jin raked his mind on what else to do, it was already way way passed his bed time and he needs to sleep or else he will not be in a good mood in the morning so Jin decided to do just what his mom use to do when he got chills when he was a small boy…
He spoon-cuddle-hug Kazu to share his body heat!
Jin tried to reason with himself that the only reason why he is doing this is because he wanted to sleep and if it means that cuddling the younger guy to give his body heat then he will do it, period.
Underneath the blankets where they are now, Jin normally sleeps in the nude so he won’t get too hot but now buried under layers of covers with his sleeping gears on, he felt hotter than usual, but this creature that he is now hugging to share his body heat keeps on edging closer and closer to him as if trying to be inside Jin or a part of his body.
As soon as Jin hugged Kazu, the guy stopped from shivering and to Jin’s amazement was actually murmuring sounds of blissfulness, an occasional purring like that of a cat comes out from the younger guy and even a slight laughter comes out from him.
Jin cannot deny that he feels something and though sleepiness drags his mind away, he knows that he is enjoying this, the soapy scent that Kazu’s hair drifting on his nostrils, the softness of Kazu’s body now pressed directly in front of him, with his soft bottom solidly locked at the junctions of his thighs and that smooth shoulder blade that is bare just in front of his mouth.
Sleepiness and Kazu don’t mix together, as he lowers his mouth just to see if what his mind is telling him is correct, he placed his warm lips at the left tip of Kazu’s shoulder blade, his skin was so cold but it felt so right for Jin. Kazu flinched a little and Jin was almost worried when the younger guy just shifted position now facing him, and burying his face under Jin’s.
Jin was about to let go of hugging Kazu, when the younger guy tighten his hold on to him and even letting his right leg straddles Jin, and on the process of doing so, his big pajama topper hiked up a little exposing his bare midriff and without realizing it, Jin placed his hands there and started rubbing away the coldness of Kazu’s body.
Jin cannot remember falling asleep just some images playing on his dreams.
Someone’s soft body was half on top of him
Someone’s gentle hand was on his face
Someone’s soft-soapy-scent drifts off to his nostrils
Someone’s slender cold midriff has his hands on it
Someone’s soft bottom is now pressed at his early morning hard-on
Someone’s bare chest is now being massage by his hand
And when he finally opened his eyes because his alarm clock is now angrily telling him it’s already 9:00am those vivid images where actually not part of his dream but his reality as he finds himself topping Kazu, who was laying face down with him literally pinning the younger guy down, with half of his top pajama off and his bottom pajama dangerously hanging low on his pelvis, showing his pelvis indentation and upper cheeks of his bottom and Jin cannot even remember when was the time he removed his shirt.
Kazu looked gorgeous.
With his hair tussled out, his mouth slightly parted probably due to difficulty in breathing coz Jin was pinning him down and most surprisingly Jin thought that the guy look so lavishly-make-love at.
Slowly lifting his body up, and seeing Kazu instinctively move towards him made his heart skip a beat as if the body of the younger guy knew that he is being separated to his beloved. Jin turns off the annoying alarm clock as he doesn’t want to wake up the younger guy who was just early this morning having so much personal battle so he can recover and probably brings any good news for them.
He liked this scenario. He liked the peacefulness that this image gives him.
Jin looking closely again at Kazu sleeping at his bed in his pajama makes him wants to protect and keep the guy.
Impossible.
Shaking his head, he cannot decide when was it that his heart decided to do just that. He knows that his parents will understand him, he don’t care what societies norms tells him about this kind of relationship, he just wanted this happiness to be his, this is what he was looking for.
For a bad morning person, this morning was very different for Jin. He has a different feel in him waking up, he normally is a grouch when he got little sleep and woke up early but this morning he feels refreshed.
Standing up and not thinking to put back on his discarded shirt, he headed straight to his morning rituals leaving a very peaceful and soundly sleeping Kazu on his bed.
He was in a good mood, his feet feels so light that he is actually thinking that one strong wind he might fly with happiness. He was humming soft tunes, happy tunes and he has this goofy look on his face plastered with an equally goofy wide smile that he just cannot get rid of.
He thought that now that he is in a good mood, might as well continue it with a happy morning meal. He might not be a genius in the kitchen but he sure is an enthusiastic learner so he has a few choice meals that he can whip up to impress a special person. So draping his towel on his shoulders he headed out to his kitchen when he almost got a heart attack when he saw a figure standing next to his kitchen counter wearing a sarong-type white dress.
“Good morning Jin” brightly greeted by Kazu who has discarded the pajama top of Jin and replaced it with one of his bed covers and make shifted it as a sarong tube type of dress exposing now his two beautiful shoulder blades that was once been touched by Jin’s lips
“Oh good morning, are you feeling well?” Jin asked trying to hide the fact that he is now directly looking at the exposed skin of the other guy and is recalling how he has placed his mouth on those and enjoyed the half of it wishing he can do the other half now
“Oh! Yes thank you” still brightly quipped by Kazu who is now on the verge of putting all the cutted pieces of vegetables and meat on the frying pan to be cooked, and that was the only time that Jin noticed that the younger guy has already one meal prepared for them and is just waiting for the other to be finished.
Jin seeing that no cooking will be prepared by him, he just goes out to set the table and he just like this again for the nth time, he like this comfortable setting. From time to time he was sneaking a few glances over to the guy cooking and he felt like so naughty thinking that he did something wrong last night that he knew that for sure he had some blushes covering his cheeks.
Jin was unaware of someone sneaking a peak of him as well, from time to time Kazu glances over to that guy that sitting on the table with his bare upper part fully exposed to him that he enjoys looking like it was the most natural thing for him to do. But what caught Kazu’s attention was that, whenever Jin speaks his heart beats faster than normal as if his voice adds more pump into it. He doesn’t know why he feels more alive when he is with Jin, just that he knows that Jin is familiar to him, whether because he has a good voice or a very appealing face or even because Jin has showed him so much kindness he doesn’t know, he is just happy to know that he is with the older guy and that is it for him.
He is at peace and he is happy.
“It’s ready!” Kazu announced beaming looking directly at the older guy sitting on the other side of the table brightly smiling back at him
“Itadakimasu” Jin said returning the happiness that he got from the younger guy
But how long will this happiness be...
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So how was it FLIST? :D
One more chapter to go and this is done hahaha, turtle slow pace but still better than nothing right hahaha :D
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