forever always seems to be around when things begin
sometimes i frustrate myself soo much for no reason. Today, i was upset all day because i have a stupid paper due and i haven't started it yet. Completely my own fault.
Didn't want to go into work at all. Went in a bad mood, but i got over it. had a decent night. better than last week.
At this point, i've dealt with the things i was fighting with and i've come to terms with them. I'm okay with everything right now, and i like it like this.
And i'm not upset about papers or anything at this point, but i'm still upset. I think that means it's time for a girl movie. Have a good little cry and feel better.
I just don't know why i'm upset.
And Jordan says that when i'm not in control i only get more upset because i like to be in control. I can see where that's true. So i guess that's part of it. Not knowing why i'm upset is doubly hard though. I'm not in control of my emotions and to add to that, i have no idea how to regain that control that i so desperately want.
When i figure it out, i'll let you know.
At any rate, i'm about to either watch a movie or get ready or bed or read. something to make myself stop fussing about nothing.