Because Of You
I never stray too far from the sidewalk...
Fourteen more days until I leave for California. It seems like a really long time but I'm sure it'll go by pathetically fast. I'm excited and dreadful all at the same time.
I realized today that I want to live an absolutely boring life. It's been boring for the past nineteen years, why not continue on the tradition? The funny part is most people wouldn't think it was boring. I have friends. I do things with them occasionally. God knows my friends back home think I'm pathetic and just sit around, but I'm okay with that because I am. My summer's consisted of three major events. Having my first job interview EVER, my only uncle I was realitively close to dying, and an unexpected but well needed trip to California to visit family. And ya know what, that's about all the damn excitement I need for now. The last year has been hell, but not in a horrible I want to die sort of way. I've just experienced so much new stuff, I'm ready to just fall back into a routine again. This summer's slow down has been awesome and has really given me time to get to know myself. This "new me" will change again soon I'm sure, but the point is I look forward to the little changes.
I'm drawing up a list of goals for my sophomore year. I'll be sure to post them when I've finished. Maybe I'll get some comments about how pathetic and anal I am? I don't know. Point being I look forward to people being critical. Lets me know I'm doing something right.
Fourteen more days until I leave for California. It seems like a really long time but I'm sure it'll go by pathetically fast. I'm excited and dreadful all at the same time.
I realized today that I want to live an absolutely boring life. It's been boring for the past nineteen years, why not continue on the tradition? The funny part is most people wouldn't think it was boring. I have friends. I do things with them occasionally. God knows my friends back home think I'm pathetic and just sit around, but I'm okay with that because I am. My summer's consisted of three major events. Having my first job interview EVER, my only uncle I was realitively close to dying, and an unexpected but well needed trip to California to visit family. And ya know what, that's about all the damn excitement I need for now. The last year has been hell, but not in a horrible I want to die sort of way. I've just experienced so much new stuff, I'm ready to just fall back into a routine again. This summer's slow down has been awesome and has really given me time to get to know myself. This "new me" will change again soon I'm sure, but the point is I look forward to the little changes.
I'm drawing up a list of goals for my sophomore year. I'll be sure to post them when I've finished. Maybe I'll get some comments about how pathetic and anal I am? I don't know. Point being I look forward to people being critical. Lets me know I'm doing something right.