Such is life
Hi, my name is Robin. Nice to meet you all! :)
I know I have been out of the loop for a while, but I promises with good reason! So much has been going on and it’s been just crazy! So I think I'm going to do topics! :)
Work:
Well, I lost my job! Wow - I just said that and I didn’t feel the urge to cry! After 7 wonderful years with my boss Ira, he has had to let me go. We lost our biggest client last month and that client alone brought in 26% of his income and he just simply can not afford me any more. I offered to take a pay decrease, cut my insurance and parking but that will just be a drop in the bucket to what he has lost. I am greatful that Ira is being very generous and giving me at least a month to figure out what I’m going to do and find something. I have some coals in the fire so we will see what happens. It still hasn’t fully sunk in that I won’t be working for him anymore. I have to keep reminding myself. I cleaned out my office yesterday, filled 3 trash cans and a box and it just felt like I was spring cleaning like I do every year. Weird! I want to stay here at Lincoln, maybe work for another agent, but there is a part of me that wants to leave my comfort zone and go out and see what else is out there. A lot of emotions are running through me at all times. It’s very hard to not let panic set in, I have to keep reminding myself…. there are other jobs out there. The thing that makes me sad is leaving Ira. Not working for him and being apart of his life and business. It’s really all I know. It breaks my heart that at a time he should be slowing down, he now has to take on his job and mine. I have no idea how I’m going to teach him everything I know and do. It’s going to be a very hard next 2 weeks. But you know, everything happens for a reason and I have always stayed with Ira because I loved him and my job but I knew I could be doing more and getting paid a whole lot more, but I settled for this cause of him. I know money isn’t everything, but I am 30 years old, I want to buy a house, I want to do all these other things and there is no way I could do it with the money I make here so in a way Ira is doing me a huge favor! :) Its time to leave, as horribly sad as that is!
Church:
So I have been going to church. North Jacksonville Baptist Church. It is quiet possibly the greatest church in the world. The pastor, Brother Herb is an amazing man and he really makes you get it. He gives me chills every time I’m sitting there listening to him. I have been going and listening and trying to figure out just what I think about everything and he has just really hit home with me. Sunday, the 12th, I made my walk and was saved. It was quiet possibly the greatest emotional thing I have ever done. I had been putting it off because of the fear of walking down in front of everyone (they are supposed to have there eyes closed, but some don’t) and when Ira told me about the job on the 10th and through crying, I felt a calm inside me and I really felt it was God letting me know I would be okay, I just couldn’t let fear keep me from truly excepting him. So Sunday, I marched my happy butt on down there to the front and I gave it all to him! I know some people don’t believe or they have questions, and that’s okay, I’m not pushing God onto anyone, but I will say that what I feel and the way the holy spirit has worked in me, I know for sure that is real! So my next step would be to get baptized and I think that’s going to be March 12th, Sunday night. :)
House:
So needless to say, with the job thing up in there air, were putting a halt on the house. I think it’s a good thing to be honest. I had some doubts about buying my aunts house but I pushed them aside and then when she came back with the price, I really had doubts. If I’m going to spend that much money on a house, I want it to be pretty darn close to what I want in a house. So as they say, everything happens for a reason! :)
All of you:
I miss all of you so much. I got to see Jenn last week and spend some one on one time with her and that just made me feel all warm inside! :) But I need to see the rest of you. As you all read, Josh’s birthday is Sunday, so maybe we can all do something! :) He cancelled the hockey game idea because of the time it started and people working and stuff. It would have been a big mess. So plan B, whatever that is! :) I hope you all are doing well and please know I love you and miss you like crazy!!
So I guess that’s it, lost my job, accepted God into my heart, ixneighed on the house and miss all of you! That’s my life! Its funny, I thought I was going to have a lot more to write about. I guess I shouldn’t have done this so early in the morning! :)
Stay Sexy ~ Robin