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My brudder is graduating.....well, he will be walking at commencements this weekend but still has another semester of classes to go... I am curious to see how things will go......hmm.... It is going to be hard for me not to try and see some of my friends since I am there to see my brother..... :P
Today was pretty good but got kinda craptastic when the boy called me after work......... I don't know why I got so frumpy.....I was happy to hear his voice but...... it still was the same old conversation that included (multiple times might I add) "what are you thinking?.....nothing.....what are you thinking?......nothing".................. *bangs head against wall* For the love of pete!!!!! ggrrr......... I have taken to saying the same thing he always said b/c I am sick of making ALL of the conversation!!!!! Gah!!.......... I love that boy to pieces but I feel like I am becoming less and less like the person he originally fell in love with!....... I should be happy that I can talk to him every night but...... It is hard for me to understand him when we hardly are around one another...... It is also hard for me to tell if he really is trying or not...... whether he is actually listening or just tuning me out.........
Maybe I am frustrated that I keep trying to better myself and think that since I am doing this, he should too!...... :( I constantly worry about what he is doing or thinking....... I feel like he doesn't want to try and keep up with me while I dont' want to slow down to his pace........ I don't want to be with anyone else.....I honestly cannot see myself with another person...... I feel that this can work between us........I know it can.....I just need some space I guess..... I dunno......
I think I'm just beating a dead horse..........eew......... :S yucky..... lol I miss him........... I wish we could be closer.........
que sera sera!!! I am not giving up on him what-so-ever!! LOVE SHALL PREVAIL!!!!! and furry kittens..... cannot forget the furry kittens!! lol
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Good ol' Sister Wendy!! (I actually don't know a whole lot about her...... I just wish I could run around the world looking and talking about art!!! rrrrrrrrrr.......lol)
Aww........ soooo cute!!........... Those were my presents from my Grandpa and Uncle when they came back from Alaska!.....many moons ago
Ja mata!!!