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So I've been thinking. A lot of stuff has happened that I am never going to understand - because I wasn't there. Not because I didn't want to be, but because you wouldn't let me. I guess I really didn't want to be there, given the company that would have been there instead. Sometimes, when you talk about things that I wasn't there for (either because you were ditching me because you were unhappy or we weren't together) it makes me realize how long things had been so... weird. How much of your life I missed. Granted, in the big scheme of things, its not even that long. It just felt like it was a long time.
I've known you for a long time - you've been my best friend for what seems like forever. And I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm so glad that I had the only experience in my life that could make me so sure, so positive about how I felt. I'm ashamed that it took that for it to kick me in the chest (just the permanence of it I mean). Well I suppose the good news is, things turned around. And I was there to grab my chance when I could because I didn't let go.
Here's to living for the day - the only way any of this was possible for me.
I've known you for a long time - you've been my best friend for what seems like forever. And I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm so glad that I had the only experience in my life that could make me so sure, so positive about how I felt. I'm ashamed that it took that for it to kick me in the chest (just the permanence of it I mean). Well I suppose the good news is, things turned around. And I was there to grab my chance when I could because I didn't let go.
Here's to living for the day - the only way any of this was possible for me.