school
i've been stressing out over this final project we have to do in anthropology, because i want to do a good job and i don't want to have to talk about something boring. so i chose this girl who i sort of know through school because she is nice and interesting. i felt bad because the project is on ethnicity and i felt like i was interrogating her about an uncomfortable topic. i kind of felt like after the interview that she had just done it to be nice but hadn't really wanted to because she even said during that she didn't really like talking about issues of "race" and i don't either, but i had to. i didn't have to do it to her though and i wish i'd known ahead of time because she seemed really unhappy when she left, and even though i tried to make her comfortable and let her talk about whatever, i feel like she had to think too much, dodging topics and trying not to get too deep into what she didn't want to. i smoked her out too! and that was probably a bad idea considering she was already in her head hell of by having to talk about her life for like an hour. but the okay part was that in the end i sort of changed the subject, allowing her to talk about anything, and she seemed to sort of come out of the state i'd put her in. i'm not going to assume that she was sooo affected by me as i thought, but i hope she's alright now. she said she was going out with her friends tonight and i hope she's having a good time. i feel awful, and i hope that my paper isn't too hard to write now. i'm getting drunk...