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***...and you're the only place that feels like home***
Well, hats off to the worst week of my life
i think things are starting to get better between us, but i'm not sure. i'm so confused the situation appears one way but feels entirely different. i feel better that i was HONEST and told him the truth, but at the same time i still feel sick to my stomach. i know i hurt him and our relationship, i know he still loves me, but i'm still scared, i'm no longer scared to lose him (he has reassured me that won't happen) but more afraid to be left untrusted, i feel like i can't gain that back,i'm afraid that every time i'm away he'll be questioning my actions, i'm so afraid that as we move on this will always linger.
i wish i could explain to him the way i feel about him, but i can't, emotions can't be put into words especially when they are this strong, i wish he could feel the butterflies i get in my stomach whenever i see him, i wish he knew that when i think of him not being around i can't even breath.
i feel sick, almost like when i eat too much cheese, and restless, i'm on the edge too emotional to explain, the tears are about to flow(for an unknown reason) at any second, i'm so tired of questioning myself and comparing myself to everyone, anyhow i need to go for a drive and think and get out the ball of nerves that are taking over my insides, and just think maybe i'll find someone to run me over.
~Brooke, my leg hurts :( (sorry)
*M-O-N-IQUA*
Well, hats off to the worst week of my life
i think things are starting to get better between us, but i'm not sure. i'm so confused the situation appears one way but feels entirely different. i feel better that i was HONEST and told him the truth, but at the same time i still feel sick to my stomach. i know i hurt him and our relationship, i know he still loves me, but i'm still scared, i'm no longer scared to lose him (he has reassured me that won't happen) but more afraid to be left untrusted, i feel like i can't gain that back,i'm afraid that every time i'm away he'll be questioning my actions, i'm so afraid that as we move on this will always linger.
i wish i could explain to him the way i feel about him, but i can't, emotions can't be put into words especially when they are this strong, i wish he could feel the butterflies i get in my stomach whenever i see him, i wish he knew that when i think of him not being around i can't even breath.
i feel sick, almost like when i eat too much cheese, and restless, i'm on the edge too emotional to explain, the tears are about to flow(for an unknown reason) at any second, i'm so tired of questioning myself and comparing myself to everyone, anyhow i need to go for a drive and think and get out the ball of nerves that are taking over my insides, and just think maybe i'll find someone to run me over.
~Brooke, my leg hurts :( (sorry)
*M-O-N-IQUA*