weakness.
there are certain things that make you realize just how strong you really are. there are also things that make you realize how much you take everything for granted. there are things that make you realize who really cares and even things that make you realize that your downfall is your own fault.
I have two sprains, one in my lower back and the other in my upper left leg. Due to a shortage of available employees I ended up averaging 34 hours a week, up from working a measly day or two a week. The money is nice (compared to what I was used to getting) and I didn't complain but I feel as if I've practically ruined my own body over some stupid 7.50 an hour job.
I'll never forget Devin carrying me out of his old Suburban to my front porch, like a child, then the next morning when he cursed me out saying I'm downplaying how much pain I'm really in. He really tries to act like he's an icebox, but for someone who doesn't really care about much to show concern for me really warms my heart. I'm glad that he's in my life.
Its only human to look back at something and think "I don't know how I did it". I went from someone who would never call off work to calling off 3 days in a week's time. I woke up crying from pain two days in a row, I cried when I finally told Devin I was feeling the worst pain in my life.
I've been trying so hard to be a rock, to be stronger, to rely only on myself, to become more independent. I've been counter-productive. I've failed.
I have two sprains, one in my lower back and the other in my upper left leg. Due to a shortage of available employees I ended up averaging 34 hours a week, up from working a measly day or two a week. The money is nice (compared to what I was used to getting) and I didn't complain but I feel as if I've practically ruined my own body over some stupid 7.50 an hour job.
I'll never forget Devin carrying me out of his old Suburban to my front porch, like a child, then the next morning when he cursed me out saying I'm downplaying how much pain I'm really in. He really tries to act like he's an icebox, but for someone who doesn't really care about much to show concern for me really warms my heart. I'm glad that he's in my life.
Its only human to look back at something and think "I don't know how I did it". I went from someone who would never call off work to calling off 3 days in a week's time. I woke up crying from pain two days in a row, I cried when I finally told Devin I was feeling the worst pain in my life.
I've been trying so hard to be a rock, to be stronger, to rely only on myself, to become more independent. I've been counter-productive. I've failed.