Everybody's Changing
Tonight has been another intro/retrospective night.
It seems you can change your location, your friends, your job, but somehow you stay the same.
You wanna hold on to these younger years, and I just can't help to think we are all growing up. I tell myself that I am great and that I will become this great success, but I am doing nothing to make it happen.
I don't like growing up. I don't want kids. I want to just keep on being young. I guess I just thought things would be way different growing up. I thought I'd be way different.
I want to be young and naive and thirsty for life. I think the teenage years took that outta me, or I destroyed it. So many things have happened since then, and just like I am doing now, I will look over this time and think I wish I was HERE NOW. Yet I am clamoring for days of yore.
I also wonder if my friends will remain the same throughout life. I have had some great friends and greater fall outs. One of my friends told me at the height of my naivete "we can't always be friends, life gets in the way" and I remember how vehemently I rejected that statement. Now I haven't spoken to that person in years really. I would like to, but I fear we are so different now it may not be the same....no, it wouldn't be the same. Still her words burn in my brain.
It seems you can change your location, your friends, your job, but somehow you stay the same.
You wanna hold on to these younger years, and I just can't help to think we are all growing up. I tell myself that I am great and that I will become this great success, but I am doing nothing to make it happen.
I don't like growing up. I don't want kids. I want to just keep on being young. I guess I just thought things would be way different growing up. I thought I'd be way different.
I want to be young and naive and thirsty for life. I think the teenage years took that outta me, or I destroyed it. So many things have happened since then, and just like I am doing now, I will look over this time and think I wish I was HERE NOW. Yet I am clamoring for days of yore.
I also wonder if my friends will remain the same throughout life. I have had some great friends and greater fall outs. One of my friends told me at the height of my naivete "we can't always be friends, life gets in the way" and I remember how vehemently I rejected that statement. Now I haven't spoken to that person in years really. I would like to, but I fear we are so different now it may not be the same....no, it wouldn't be the same. Still her words burn in my brain.