WHAT TO DO?
I know its been forever, and i constantly log on and look at this screen, just to 'x' it out. I have a lot I want to say, but I know that it really doesn't matter.
Well, to start things from way back. I am not a religious person, and I don't believe any of them fully. I believe in God as in a spirtual sense and we all have souls and stuff, but I don't really believe the Bible is cold hard truths, i believe all those stories are just that, stories written by man and to be takened metaphorically. More so a guide book in which to live by. I am personally agnostic, I don't think you will ever disprove God fully, but so far scientifically, its doing a better job than proving, but I know I could always be wrong. Well, to make this clear, I don't hate religion, I think to each his own, but I do have a problem against most christians, because a lot of them end up being assholes. They believe they are always the one right, yet I see them twist the Bible into their views, and you can't disagree with them, you have to be of their religion or they keep pestering you about it and why your wrong and living a selfish life. Basically, they live on a high horse parading around.
The reason I say this, is because I am mainly talking about a good friend I lost recently. My friend Dave and I got into a fight. It started the one day when Dave and Rosslyn + Cait and I were hanging out like a group date, and they just talked about religion the whole time and it was honestly a very boring day for me, because I wanted to hang out and have fun, not that. So in the end, Cait said something along the lines that she couldn't marry me unless I was of the same faith as her. I stopped what I was doing and just said if you truly believe that, lets break up now, cause I can only be me and that would be changing who I am for you, and I don't believe in it. In the end she apologised for it and said she didn't mean that way, she just wishes I was because technically, I will be going to hell(accordingly to religion) and she doesn't want to see that.
Flash forward to the next day, Dave came over along with Justin and we were hanging out. Dave asked about that night before and I said to him how I felt betrayed because I wanted my girlfriend to love me for me and not want to change me like that. I then quoted how the bible said its ok to marry outside of your religion, culture, etc... as long as you don't lose your faith. He then proceeded to tell me the bible also said that my spouse and I are to be on equal terms of faith. I then pointed out that makes a contradiction, however, I cannot be who I am not, and if that is a problem we can end our relationship because I can't change who I am. I thought the conversation was over, and we started to go for a walk, when in the middle of another unrelated topic, he says, "Going back to the earlier topic."
He then started telling me that I need to give christianity a try because I am being close minded and I was wrong. I instantly got angry, because I felt not only my girlfriend, but now a close friend is doing this. I started talking about how I am a good person and I am not doing anything wrong, and I chose my religion or lack of one, and I don't appreciate hearing words like "wrong" or "close minded". He then started to say how he is doing everything in life for Christ, and I am only doing things for myself. Later in the walk he insulted Cait's faith and said she isn't on the same level as his relationship with Christ. Thats when the conversation ended along with our friendship. A lot more was said between us, though. My point is I felt that he crossed lines of frienship with what he was saying, and especially downtalking my girlfriend's faith. I was so pissed, but I am not anymore, because I don't feel like I need to apologise for anything more than yelling at him telling him to "fuck off." I am sorry for that, but I mean everything else I said, because I don't fight with anyone else over religion, because all my other friends accept these differences amongst each other and just hang out, not pushing our religious, political, or social views in others faces saying everything else is wrong.
Dave then terminated our friendship and cancelled our room for Tekko, so I stayed in the one with Pat and Danielle. However, he still wanted to hang out with Pat there, but completely ditched us all day Friday. It was all just bullshit. But eventually he left on Saturday morning, and then we found a way for Justin to get home so we can have all of us hang out still. In the end Tekko was a success and I loved it. <3 Tekko Rave. The end of the story is here when I texted him to not really try to repair our friendship but to come to terms, but still he only saw one way to it and didn't want anything else. So, I left it at that, erased him off my phone, and off my AIM, and now moving on from all of that.
Now, to talk about Tekko, simply to say it started off horrible because of the Dave thing. However, Saturday was one of the greatest Tekko days ever. It was so much fun and it was cool to see everyone again. I bought ten DVDS and some statues and something for Cait. The rave had one word - AWESOME.
Everything is still same as usual, work is going ok. I am loving my Wii and about to own a PS3 when MGS4 comes out, my friend from Gamestop is going to hold the bundle package for me so thats cool. I been buying so much games and anime and books, but they're coming in faster than I'm finishing them.
Also, Mogush and I are jamming together, him on his guitar and me on the bass. It is so much fun, we have been playing Muse - Muscle Museum, Alkaline Trio - Hell Yes, and Phoenix Wright - Cross Examination Allegro. We're going to start writing our own song soon. We just need a drummer and singer.
To say the least, my life is actually getting better. I almost payed off one of my college loans about $800 left, and my $600 tax rebate will be going towards that. After that I will be going to college, when all my bills are payed off, probably in about two years, I think - I hope.
Oh yeah, in case everyone forgot, like I think they all have, my birthday is on May 23rd, actually I am saying that to see Indiana Jones movie for whoever wants to come. Trying to get a group to go.
I have more to say, I really do, but I don't feel like typing and feel like watching D.Gray-man which btw been picked up by Funimation due out in 09'.
Well, to start things from way back. I am not a religious person, and I don't believe any of them fully. I believe in God as in a spirtual sense and we all have souls and stuff, but I don't really believe the Bible is cold hard truths, i believe all those stories are just that, stories written by man and to be takened metaphorically. More so a guide book in which to live by. I am personally agnostic, I don't think you will ever disprove God fully, but so far scientifically, its doing a better job than proving, but I know I could always be wrong. Well, to make this clear, I don't hate religion, I think to each his own, but I do have a problem against most christians, because a lot of them end up being assholes. They believe they are always the one right, yet I see them twist the Bible into their views, and you can't disagree with them, you have to be of their religion or they keep pestering you about it and why your wrong and living a selfish life. Basically, they live on a high horse parading around.
The reason I say this, is because I am mainly talking about a good friend I lost recently. My friend Dave and I got into a fight. It started the one day when Dave and Rosslyn + Cait and I were hanging out like a group date, and they just talked about religion the whole time and it was honestly a very boring day for me, because I wanted to hang out and have fun, not that. So in the end, Cait said something along the lines that she couldn't marry me unless I was of the same faith as her. I stopped what I was doing and just said if you truly believe that, lets break up now, cause I can only be me and that would be changing who I am for you, and I don't believe in it. In the end she apologised for it and said she didn't mean that way, she just wishes I was because technically, I will be going to hell(accordingly to religion) and she doesn't want to see that.
Flash forward to the next day, Dave came over along with Justin and we were hanging out. Dave asked about that night before and I said to him how I felt betrayed because I wanted my girlfriend to love me for me and not want to change me like that. I then quoted how the bible said its ok to marry outside of your religion, culture, etc... as long as you don't lose your faith. He then proceeded to tell me the bible also said that my spouse and I are to be on equal terms of faith. I then pointed out that makes a contradiction, however, I cannot be who I am not, and if that is a problem we can end our relationship because I can't change who I am. I thought the conversation was over, and we started to go for a walk, when in the middle of another unrelated topic, he says, "Going back to the earlier topic."
He then started telling me that I need to give christianity a try because I am being close minded and I was wrong. I instantly got angry, because I felt not only my girlfriend, but now a close friend is doing this. I started talking about how I am a good person and I am not doing anything wrong, and I chose my religion or lack of one, and I don't appreciate hearing words like "wrong" or "close minded". He then started to say how he is doing everything in life for Christ, and I am only doing things for myself. Later in the walk he insulted Cait's faith and said she isn't on the same level as his relationship with Christ. Thats when the conversation ended along with our friendship. A lot more was said between us, though. My point is I felt that he crossed lines of frienship with what he was saying, and especially downtalking my girlfriend's faith. I was so pissed, but I am not anymore, because I don't feel like I need to apologise for anything more than yelling at him telling him to "fuck off." I am sorry for that, but I mean everything else I said, because I don't fight with anyone else over religion, because all my other friends accept these differences amongst each other and just hang out, not pushing our religious, political, or social views in others faces saying everything else is wrong.
Dave then terminated our friendship and cancelled our room for Tekko, so I stayed in the one with Pat and Danielle. However, he still wanted to hang out with Pat there, but completely ditched us all day Friday. It was all just bullshit. But eventually he left on Saturday morning, and then we found a way for Justin to get home so we can have all of us hang out still. In the end Tekko was a success and I loved it. <3 Tekko Rave. The end of the story is here when I texted him to not really try to repair our friendship but to come to terms, but still he only saw one way to it and didn't want anything else. So, I left it at that, erased him off my phone, and off my AIM, and now moving on from all of that.
Now, to talk about Tekko, simply to say it started off horrible because of the Dave thing. However, Saturday was one of the greatest Tekko days ever. It was so much fun and it was cool to see everyone again. I bought ten DVDS and some statues and something for Cait. The rave had one word - AWESOME.
Everything is still same as usual, work is going ok. I am loving my Wii and about to own a PS3 when MGS4 comes out, my friend from Gamestop is going to hold the bundle package for me so thats cool. I been buying so much games and anime and books, but they're coming in faster than I'm finishing them.
Also, Mogush and I are jamming together, him on his guitar and me on the bass. It is so much fun, we have been playing Muse - Muscle Museum, Alkaline Trio - Hell Yes, and Phoenix Wright - Cross Examination Allegro. We're going to start writing our own song soon. We just need a drummer and singer.
To say the least, my life is actually getting better. I almost payed off one of my college loans about $800 left, and my $600 tax rebate will be going towards that. After that I will be going to college, when all my bills are payed off, probably in about two years, I think - I hope.
Oh yeah, in case everyone forgot, like I think they all have, my birthday is on May 23rd, actually I am saying that to see Indiana Jones movie for whoever wants to come. Trying to get a group to go.
I have more to say, I really do, but I don't feel like typing and feel like watching D.Gray-man which btw been picked up by Funimation due out in 09'.