sleepless
I'm writing this on the verge of an anxiety episode.
I have to tell myself to keep typing and breathing so I won't freak out. Anxiety always begins the same for me, the trigger varies but the first phenomena is: "Oh my God I can't breathe"
Next I feel my arm numbing. Then my field of vision collapses as my breathing rate becomes un-managable. Tremendous fear intnesifies into a death-like trance of staring into oblivion.
Things slow down after a while and I often feel disconnected from my body. Its a heavy languid freedom from physicality that is not natural unless your body has been pumping you full of adrenaline for no good reason.
Lately I'm fearing robbers, muggings and home invasion.
My mind never rests...
I have to tell myself to keep typing and breathing so I won't freak out. Anxiety always begins the same for me, the trigger varies but the first phenomena is: "Oh my God I can't breathe"
Next I feel my arm numbing. Then my field of vision collapses as my breathing rate becomes un-managable. Tremendous fear intnesifies into a death-like trance of staring into oblivion.
Things slow down after a while and I often feel disconnected from my body. Its a heavy languid freedom from physicality that is not natural unless your body has been pumping you full of adrenaline for no good reason.
Lately I'm fearing robbers, muggings and home invasion.
My mind never rests...