to be responsible or not be responsible...
that's the question folks.
i must say i feel in a bit of a slump these days. i'm 21, it's my last full year of school, and i feel that i should be able to get my last year of college life and fun, but then again, responsibility prevails when i'm in bed on time and homework or cleaning the kitchen win out over fun times with friends.
i feel like i'm missing something, or maybe just plain missing out. i mean, i know i'm busy this semester, and that things in life haven't been up to par lately, but that's something i'm working on. why is it that i'm always in my room doing homework or in my own little world reading some book i can't keep my nose out of. and while this isn't necessarily a bad thing, i don't want to spend all my time like this.
last time i 'went out' was on a rescue mission for a friend and ended up pulling an all nighter at the hospital, most of it spent pacing and worrying.
it's odd how i'm realizing how much being brought up an only child makes me more of a loner than most of my friends. a majority of my friends have siblings, while i am quite content reading a book, writing, painting, or doing whatever by myself. once again, not a bad thing, but does it always have to be this way?
it doesn't help that my good friends really do nothing but talk about their significant others and how great it is, how great they are, blah blah. this is in no way a cry of desperation...like i have time for a significant other?!?!?! haha, not really. since when do significant others take the place of friends though? i can admit that i'm feeling left out, but is it just my own fault? am i purposely excluding myself? or did i just miss the train on this one?
i must say i feel in a bit of a slump these days. i'm 21, it's my last full year of school, and i feel that i should be able to get my last year of college life and fun, but then again, responsibility prevails when i'm in bed on time and homework or cleaning the kitchen win out over fun times with friends.
i feel like i'm missing something, or maybe just plain missing out. i mean, i know i'm busy this semester, and that things in life haven't been up to par lately, but that's something i'm working on. why is it that i'm always in my room doing homework or in my own little world reading some book i can't keep my nose out of. and while this isn't necessarily a bad thing, i don't want to spend all my time like this.
last time i 'went out' was on a rescue mission for a friend and ended up pulling an all nighter at the hospital, most of it spent pacing and worrying.
it's odd how i'm realizing how much being brought up an only child makes me more of a loner than most of my friends. a majority of my friends have siblings, while i am quite content reading a book, writing, painting, or doing whatever by myself. once again, not a bad thing, but does it always have to be this way?
it doesn't help that my good friends really do nothing but talk about their significant others and how great it is, how great they are, blah blah. this is in no way a cry of desperation...like i have time for a significant other?!?!?! haha, not really. since when do significant others take the place of friends though? i can admit that i'm feeling left out, but is it just my own fault? am i purposely excluding myself? or did i just miss the train on this one?