Terrified out of my mind

[mtfanatic]

So I know I need to do this. I should have done it a long time ago but I was scared. And she solidified my fears by telling me exactly what I didn't want to hear. Exactly what I knew was going to happen and the very thing I feared. I kept getting told "You need to do this" "She's only hurting you more and you're letting her" "Once she's gone, you'll feel better" and I knew they were all right but I couldn't do it. Chicken? Maybe but whatever. I couldn't do it I'm sorry. I talked with an old friend today and she said the same as others. That I needed to do it. But she went one step further. She pointed out to me that I was scared. Maybe I needed to hear that?! I'm in process of finally doing it. I'm terrified out of my mind. My chest and head are killing me. But I need to do this. It has to happen or all that's going to happen is I'm just going to continue getting hurt. I know this isn't my fault and that I haven't done anything to feel bad but I can't help it.

Edit: I love magicmelodyx. Thank you so much sweetie.*hugs*