gotta love extended family...
Why is that no matter how far away you are, family always still have a way of coming after you and hitting you below the belt?!
I got a letter from my Dad's oldest sister. I think she's feeling a bit guilty for how she treated me. She wrote me a page and half letter typed about what happened with my Dad during the last few days of his life. I was there the last few days of his life. So to me, it almost seems like she forgot I was there? I know everyone was in their own little world at that time and that's when the family just fell apart- actually it got split in half to be exact. To this day, they still no longer speak to one another. I'm the only one that talks to both sides. What's wrong with this picture?
I don't know how to explain this.. she did tell me that my Dad had carried a picture of my parents and I in his wallet, up til the day that he died. It's weird because my parents had been divorced for almost 17 years. She also mentioned that he had a lot of regrets and went into depth with some of them-- regrets that I already knew about. Her and gma were happy that I had maintained a relationship with my Dad, etc. It was weird. My Dad and I had stopped talking for each other shortly after I moved to KS and we hadn't spoken for like five years and then I let him come back into my life again. In the letter, I'm going to tell her that I already knew about Dad's regrets but if he was so proud of me, why did he do the dishonorable thing in the end? Why is she writing me a letter after the fact that he's been gone for the last six to seven months? That's where I think she's feeling guilty!
It's like was the money from my Dad's estate not enough? I mean, if it wasn't for one of my friends passing away back in Feb., I probably would still be bitter but Andy's death was a wake up call. Who knows if I would still be speaking to that side fo the family... I think I probably would of gone twds the one that got banished... I just had a way of making myself come back on that side though because in some ways, I was banished from that side of the family.... and then I think Gma was feeling guilty, etc...
Ohhhhh, nothing like remembering something... wonder if what I had said to my gma a few weeks ago about that I think people just need to grow up and let bygones be bygones abt what happened that week. Everyone was grieving abt Dad's death and everyone dealt with it differently. It might not neccessarily of meant it in a good way (because how it was dealt was not in a good way)!!!!! None of you have met my Gma with the exception of Kel, and Kel would have to agree with me...what I said to my gma was pretty gusty!!! She's got this way about her... you feel sorry for her but at the same time you don't ever want to double cross her... because she could make your life a living hell without even knowing it.
Hmm, I don't know. I think that's all for now. I think I'm going to bed. I got less than five hours of sleep. My sleeping schedule's fked up for the week. Start working overnights this week from 10 PM to 6 AM- Mon thru Friday. At least it means 40 hrs this week! YAY!!!! :)
Off to bed or who knows where. Toodles..
I got a letter from my Dad's oldest sister. I think she's feeling a bit guilty for how she treated me. She wrote me a page and half letter typed about what happened with my Dad during the last few days of his life. I was there the last few days of his life. So to me, it almost seems like she forgot I was there? I know everyone was in their own little world at that time and that's when the family just fell apart- actually it got split in half to be exact. To this day, they still no longer speak to one another. I'm the only one that talks to both sides. What's wrong with this picture?
I don't know how to explain this.. she did tell me that my Dad had carried a picture of my parents and I in his wallet, up til the day that he died. It's weird because my parents had been divorced for almost 17 years. She also mentioned that he had a lot of regrets and went into depth with some of them-- regrets that I already knew about. Her and gma were happy that I had maintained a relationship with my Dad, etc. It was weird. My Dad and I had stopped talking for each other shortly after I moved to KS and we hadn't spoken for like five years and then I let him come back into my life again. In the letter, I'm going to tell her that I already knew about Dad's regrets but if he was so proud of me, why did he do the dishonorable thing in the end? Why is she writing me a letter after the fact that he's been gone for the last six to seven months? That's where I think she's feeling guilty!
It's like was the money from my Dad's estate not enough? I mean, if it wasn't for one of my friends passing away back in Feb., I probably would still be bitter but Andy's death was a wake up call. Who knows if I would still be speaking to that side fo the family... I think I probably would of gone twds the one that got banished... I just had a way of making myself come back on that side though because in some ways, I was banished from that side of the family.... and then I think Gma was feeling guilty, etc...
Ohhhhh, nothing like remembering something... wonder if what I had said to my gma a few weeks ago about that I think people just need to grow up and let bygones be bygones abt what happened that week. Everyone was grieving abt Dad's death and everyone dealt with it differently. It might not neccessarily of meant it in a good way (because how it was dealt was not in a good way)!!!!! None of you have met my Gma with the exception of Kel, and Kel would have to agree with me...what I said to my gma was pretty gusty!!! She's got this way about her... you feel sorry for her but at the same time you don't ever want to double cross her... because she could make your life a living hell without even knowing it.
Hmm, I don't know. I think that's all for now. I think I'm going to bed. I got less than five hours of sleep. My sleeping schedule's fked up for the week. Start working overnights this week from 10 PM to 6 AM- Mon thru Friday. At least it means 40 hrs this week! YAY!!!! :)
Off to bed or who knows where. Toodles..