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Gotta grab life by the horns- it's the only way to survive this world!
Too bad it's harder to do that when you live with your parents. Sometimes they're the horns that are driving against you. Don't get me wrong, I have a good relationship with my parents, it's just a bit different than most of my friends. They're there for me when I need them to be but when it comes to emotional stuff, that's a bit of a different story. I don't know, Mom was good when it came to my Dad passing away but since then, things btw us have gone down hill. I realized that I've changed a lot. I've grown outside my box. I think now that I'm home, I think my parents expect me to be who I was a year ago. There's no way in HELL I'm going back to that person. I've allowed too many people get away with crap and I'm done with that. I'll cut you some slack but not like how I was before. Death has a way of making you realize that life's too short. You gotta make the best of it because your'e only offered one life and since Dad was only 51 years old when he died, that made me realize, I could only have 27 more years left to live and get everything that I want to get done. I mean I'm planning on living til I'm in my 80's or whatnot but you know? Hell, I could die tmw. I don't want to die knowing that I didn't get to do everything that I wanted to do.
I was looking at pictures of my Dad of when he was younger and even when my parents were still married. A lot of them had to do with me being little, etc. It brought back so many powerful memories. I also look at those pictures and think, man I was such a happy kid. Dad even took some pictures of the day that he moved out into his "new" apartment. It was so strange to think that he took pictures of that day. I suppose there was some old film on there but you know? I found a picture of Mom, she just didn't look happy. She was smiling but you could see it in her eyes.
So strange going down the memory lanes. I'm still not done looking through all of those pictures. it was a box that was found among his possessons that my cousin gave to me. Only I just got it last month. Hadn't been able to look at it til now.
Think I'm going to hit the sack so toodles.
Too bad it's harder to do that when you live with your parents. Sometimes they're the horns that are driving against you. Don't get me wrong, I have a good relationship with my parents, it's just a bit different than most of my friends. They're there for me when I need them to be but when it comes to emotional stuff, that's a bit of a different story. I don't know, Mom was good when it came to my Dad passing away but since then, things btw us have gone down hill. I realized that I've changed a lot. I've grown outside my box. I think now that I'm home, I think my parents expect me to be who I was a year ago. There's no way in HELL I'm going back to that person. I've allowed too many people get away with crap and I'm done with that. I'll cut you some slack but not like how I was before. Death has a way of making you realize that life's too short. You gotta make the best of it because your'e only offered one life and since Dad was only 51 years old when he died, that made me realize, I could only have 27 more years left to live and get everything that I want to get done. I mean I'm planning on living til I'm in my 80's or whatnot but you know? Hell, I could die tmw. I don't want to die knowing that I didn't get to do everything that I wanted to do.
I was looking at pictures of my Dad of when he was younger and even when my parents were still married. A lot of them had to do with me being little, etc. It brought back so many powerful memories. I also look at those pictures and think, man I was such a happy kid. Dad even took some pictures of the day that he moved out into his "new" apartment. It was so strange to think that he took pictures of that day. I suppose there was some old film on there but you know? I found a picture of Mom, she just didn't look happy. She was smiling but you could see it in her eyes.
So strange going down the memory lanes. I'm still not done looking through all of those pictures. it was a box that was found among his possessons that my cousin gave to me. Only I just got it last month. Hadn't been able to look at it til now.
Think I'm going to hit the sack so toodles.