Hormones
So my hormones have been doing a number on me today. I was exhausted all day long which made me incredibly impatient with my students. Although the kids were admittedly nuts today. I came home and did some cleaning so the place doesn't look so bad when my principal comes in the morning. Then I sat down to the computer to check out myspace and facebook. I got to looking at some pictures from college. One picture in particular really got to me. I don't know what is harder saying goodbye to one of the few people on the planet that really knows you or finally realizing that as hard as it is you can make it ok without them. It's been two years. Two long years since I've really talked to one of the greatest friends I've ever had. I don't know why it still bothers me. I guess it's because I don't easily make friends and really let them see me. It's crushing to put yourself out there and get shut out because you aren't "good enough". But even worse is finally being accepted completely by someone and still end up pushed out of their life. I was mad for a very long time but now I'm just sad. (Sad isn't really the best word but it's the only thing I can come up with at the moment) I have a great life. I love my husband, my son and this new baby. I have other friends, some who know me better than others, but I care about them all and would do whatever I could for them if they ever needed me. I guess we all have things that we wish were different. To all of my friends (past and present) I hope you know that I still think of you and pray for you.