everything
The list of things I have to do consist of:
get my driving permit ~
get an A in my sociology course ~
get my GED ~
get my real estate liscence ~
help my mom get the house ready to sell ~
move ~
The list of things I want to do consist of:
see Robert
see Robert
see Robert
see Robert
no but seriously, I want to go to the gym more often, I want to quit smoking, I want to spend as much time as I can with Nikki and Tally before they go off to college and leave me here. I want to tie up loose ends with people in my life that were once important to me. I want to have fun with Sam and April and Charlotte. I want to get shit faced and watch the sun come up. I don't know how to get any of these things accomplished with my job at blockbuster and all the things I need to do. I don't know how to illiminate all the bullshit drama that surrounds me. Once I get some of the things I have to do out of the way I can start slowly incorporating the things I want to do, but that could take months... months that I don't know if I can sacrifice.
I have a car I can't drive. I have friends I can't see. I have 5 free movie rentals a week I can't watch. I have scary obsessions with television programs such as everwood, 7th heaven, and one tree hill. I have burned bridges and a neglected mother. I have a boyfriend who cares about me so much that it is almost heartbreaking. I want to tell myself it will all be okay, but it's really hard to lie to yourself.
~*LuLu*~
get my driving permit ~
get an A in my sociology course ~
get my GED ~
get my real estate liscence ~
help my mom get the house ready to sell ~
move ~
The list of things I want to do consist of:
see Robert
see Robert
see Robert
see Robert
no but seriously, I want to go to the gym more often, I want to quit smoking, I want to spend as much time as I can with Nikki and Tally before they go off to college and leave me here. I want to tie up loose ends with people in my life that were once important to me. I want to have fun with Sam and April and Charlotte. I want to get shit faced and watch the sun come up. I don't know how to get any of these things accomplished with my job at blockbuster and all the things I need to do. I don't know how to illiminate all the bullshit drama that surrounds me. Once I get some of the things I have to do out of the way I can start slowly incorporating the things I want to do, but that could take months... months that I don't know if I can sacrifice.
I have a car I can't drive. I have friends I can't see. I have 5 free movie rentals a week I can't watch. I have scary obsessions with television programs such as everwood, 7th heaven, and one tree hill. I have burned bridges and a neglected mother. I have a boyfriend who cares about me so much that it is almost heartbreaking. I want to tell myself it will all be okay, but it's really hard to lie to yourself.
~*LuLu*~