Stage 5: Acceptance
It’s been a bizarre couple of days. I feel like I’ve been going through the five stages of grief as I deal with my move to Samoa. I’ve dealt with Denial, Anger, Bargaining, and Depression since I’ve been here. In addition, I’ve been quite worried about the bombing going on in Haifa. As strange as it sounds, I wish I were working there. I guess I just want to be there to help or at least see what’s going on. On Sunday I started to get overwhelmed between all the stuff that was going on in Israel and getting used to being here. I was really feeling wrong about being here in Samoa. It’s hard to understand why I ended up here instead of Haifa. I feel like even with all the scary things going on in Haifa, I would be able to handle it there. Here it’s different. Things here are a different kind of scary. But its strange, just the fact that I feel like I can’t deal with some of challenges here, is exactly why I think I’m here, to learn to deal with them. It’s funny how that works. How the only things worth learning are the things you don’t already know. And the only way to learn is to do things you’ve never done. As difficult as it, I’m trying to accept that I’m really here, leading to the final stage, acceptance. As I finally unpacked and emptied my American money, I accepted that, for better or worse, I was here for the long haul.