Oct 01, 2008 00:03
so 13 years ago yesterday i quit drinking. i've stayed quit so in a sense that part has been simple to me. once i get something in my head finally, the logic tends to hold for me. and if something like strawberries made me as sick and as miserable as alcohol does, i would hope that i'd stop eating the fucking strawberries. but these things can take some time for some reason...
at first i hung around mostly with other sober people going to meetings every day - i loved aa in new york city. there were moviestars and crazy people and i fell in love with a cute blond brit coke addict. i was pretty happy, for the first time in a long time, maybe ever really, even though it was a strange time. my head kind of turned inside out and all of my emotions were exploding out like an electrical storm. and then after about 6 months clean when the flashbacks from the trauma i had as a kid started to unfurl again i could just go in there and cry and cry.
there are a lot of really good expressions i picked up there. that can apply to life in general i think... one of my favorites is -
if someone tells you that you have a tail, you can laugh and tell them they are full of shit. but if 3 different people tell you that you have a tail... you might want to at least turn around and take a look...
cheers to life