Alone
I don't like to whine, but fuck it all. I'm about to.
All has been so crazy, I don't know what's come over me. I'm so 'hormonal' as Jon put it. I'm very volatile since Thursday morning, and guess what, no one seems to care.
I don't know, I think I'm a pretty caring friend and I'm not really high demanding, but every once in awhile I wish someone would pick me up and rock me on their lap.
I wish sometimes people would actually listen to what *I* want or need. I know I shouldn't expect anything from anyone but I can't help it, my mind yells at me and wants to beat me up, but hell, I just want a hug right now.
I don't know if I'm overreacting but I was truly shocked at how everyone treated the matter as if it was just another occurence. She was asking them to come with her to the funeral and they were like, I'm really sorry about your loss, but i can't change my fucking schedule. It's a holiday tomorrow, I'm traveling. Hope your father dies when I'm free. Better luck next time. >:O I mean wtf, she just lost her mother, isn't that important enough to cancel a trip?
I hate my ex too, my God, how could I ever think I had any feelings for him. He's a jerk, he's stupid and childish and just plain idiotic. I can't stand to look at him anymore and I guess it doesn't help that he seats behind me in class >:O
I hate seeing my friends in pain, it hurts me much more than if it were my pain. She's been 'living dangerously' and it bothers me. There's nothing bad with being a goody-goody, ok?! I hate it when people tell me that as if it was a bad thing. WELL, EXCUSE ME, I HAVE MORALS.
-shrugs- Who knows, I think I'm acting like this because I'm too sensitive towards people's feelings. I care too much and it hurts and surprises me in a bad way to see that most of the people I care about are too selfish to give back what they get. I should just shut up and get over it and eventually I will. I just wish I had someone right now.
Death sucks.
Sorry for the long entry, if you're still reading at all =x
- anna
All has been so crazy, I don't know what's come over me. I'm so 'hormonal' as Jon put it. I'm very volatile since Thursday morning, and guess what, no one seems to care.
I don't know, I think I'm a pretty caring friend and I'm not really high demanding, but every once in awhile I wish someone would pick me up and rock me on their lap.
I wish sometimes people would actually listen to what *I* want or need. I know I shouldn't expect anything from anyone but I can't help it, my mind yells at me and wants to beat me up, but hell, I just want a hug right now.
I don't know if I'm overreacting but I was truly shocked at how everyone treated the matter as if it was just another occurence. She was asking them to come with her to the funeral and they were like, I'm really sorry about your loss, but i can't change my fucking schedule. It's a holiday tomorrow, I'm traveling. Hope your father dies when I'm free. Better luck next time. >:O I mean wtf, she just lost her mother, isn't that important enough to cancel a trip?
I hate my ex too, my God, how could I ever think I had any feelings for him. He's a jerk, he's stupid and childish and just plain idiotic. I can't stand to look at him anymore and I guess it doesn't help that he seats behind me in class >:O
I hate seeing my friends in pain, it hurts me much more than if it were my pain. She's been 'living dangerously' and it bothers me. There's nothing bad with being a goody-goody, ok?! I hate it when people tell me that as if it was a bad thing. WELL, EXCUSE ME, I HAVE MORALS.
-shrugs- Who knows, I think I'm acting like this because I'm too sensitive towards people's feelings. I care too much and it hurts and surprises me in a bad way to see that most of the people I care about are too selfish to give back what they get. I should just shut up and get over it and eventually I will. I just wish I had someone right now.
Death sucks.
Sorry for the long entry, if you're still reading at all =x
- anna