True Feelings
Today was a very bad day, not only was it cold and rainy, I skipped class and sat home doing alot of thinking. So what was I thinking you ask? Well its ur lucky day cuz im gonna tell you!
Joe is this wonderful guy that I met a few weeks ago, we have been hanging out alot lately and I love it. I love spending time w/ him, we always have fun togther no matter what we do. So you ask whats the problem....well theres a major problem! Theres this other girl, I really dont know what to call her (his g/f, ex g/f whatever). Im not sure on the whole history of them, and im really not gonna display it on here b/c thats really not my buisness to be doing that. So that means that all we can be is friends! Yes, I do like being friends w/ him and I would rather be friends w/ him then not have him in my life at all, but it hurts. Ive finally found this great guy, and I cant be with him. He constently tells me he likes me and all this good stuff about me, but he ends it with saying but we can only be friends. If you like me as much as u say u do, then we wouldnt be just friends!
This whole situation really surprises me, I cant believe I feel like this towards him in such a short amount of time. He asked me the other day if Ive felt this way before, and it made me realize that I havent so quickly. Thats gotta say something, doesnt it? I dont understand how i can fall for someone so quickly only to find out it realy doesnt matter what I think b/c nothing is going to happen.
So how do I really feel about him....Well like i said earlier ive never felt for someone so much so quickly as i have w/ him. FOr those of you who know Chuck, its even faster then that. I enjoy every second we spend togther, even if it is just laying outside in the hamack doing nothing. I see him almost every day, and still miss him when im not w/ him! Does that tell you how much I feel for him?
We have this thing about laying out on my hamack ((for some reason he loves it)), one day we were laying on it and he was like "you know what would be awesome, if we came out here when it was raining and layed on the hamack togther." We wouldnt get rained on b/c theres so many trees above the hamack. Well on the way home from the mall today ((from visiting him at work)) I saw the most beautiful sunset, the sky was orange and pink. and guess what I thought of? Yes, I thought of laying on the hamack w/ joe while it was lightly raining and watching the beautiful sunsent togther. Now how romantic would that be?? Just thinking that brought a smile to my face!
I wrote him this poem today ((its the best way i can express my feelings)) now i just have to get up the courage to give it to him. I dont know what ((if anything )) it will do but at least he will understand that my feelings are real.
basically im just really confused about the whole thing. I would love to be w/ him but am I just hurting myself again and again by trying?
Joe is this wonderful guy that I met a few weeks ago, we have been hanging out alot lately and I love it. I love spending time w/ him, we always have fun togther no matter what we do. So you ask whats the problem....well theres a major problem! Theres this other girl, I really dont know what to call her (his g/f, ex g/f whatever). Im not sure on the whole history of them, and im really not gonna display it on here b/c thats really not my buisness to be doing that. So that means that all we can be is friends! Yes, I do like being friends w/ him and I would rather be friends w/ him then not have him in my life at all, but it hurts. Ive finally found this great guy, and I cant be with him. He constently tells me he likes me and all this good stuff about me, but he ends it with saying but we can only be friends. If you like me as much as u say u do, then we wouldnt be just friends!
This whole situation really surprises me, I cant believe I feel like this towards him in such a short amount of time. He asked me the other day if Ive felt this way before, and it made me realize that I havent so quickly. Thats gotta say something, doesnt it? I dont understand how i can fall for someone so quickly only to find out it realy doesnt matter what I think b/c nothing is going to happen.
So how do I really feel about him....Well like i said earlier ive never felt for someone so much so quickly as i have w/ him. FOr those of you who know Chuck, its even faster then that. I enjoy every second we spend togther, even if it is just laying outside in the hamack doing nothing. I see him almost every day, and still miss him when im not w/ him! Does that tell you how much I feel for him?
We have this thing about laying out on my hamack ((for some reason he loves it)), one day we were laying on it and he was like "you know what would be awesome, if we came out here when it was raining and layed on the hamack togther." We wouldnt get rained on b/c theres so many trees above the hamack. Well on the way home from the mall today ((from visiting him at work)) I saw the most beautiful sunset, the sky was orange and pink. and guess what I thought of? Yes, I thought of laying on the hamack w/ joe while it was lightly raining and watching the beautiful sunsent togther. Now how romantic would that be?? Just thinking that brought a smile to my face!
I wrote him this poem today ((its the best way i can express my feelings)) now i just have to get up the courage to give it to him. I dont know what ((if anything )) it will do but at least he will understand that my feelings are real.
basically im just really confused about the whole thing. I would love to be w/ him but am I just hurting myself again and again by trying?